Reminiscence of Tears

Lost

2011-02-03T14:01:00.003+08:00

I thought i was going in the right direction... but as a matter of fact, i've been drifted away from what i thought i wanted to be and now i am here not knowing what i really want to be anymore...

i've worked at the same company for about a year and a half, i admit i grew bit by bit and now i kind of enjoy it but i am lacking the passion i want ... am actually working with frustration cause of the really horrible works the outsourced company has been giving back to us... really if i had the chance I WILL make them pay...

however i have interest in what this company has to offer, the projects does interest me but of course hard work comes with it as well... XDXDXD

anyway let me briefly update myself on what happened for the past few months

XDXDXD

TAIWAN trip~ was wasome~!!!!!!!!!

I had so much fun with my colleagues and we kind of really bond more than we did before XDXDXD except the boss but at least we get to know more bout Totoro and his wife and Yukio san XDXDXDXD and made really fun memories with the rest of the steam bun crew XDXDXDXD

XDXDXD we nearly missed our flight to taiwan XDXDXD all our names got called at the speaker XDXDXD and so we dashed from mcd and ran up to our flights XDXDXD it was bout 4 hours and by the time we reach there it in the evening ~ and thanks to the tour guide he brought us to the National Palace Museum to see cabbage and pork stones... yea you heard me pork stone... it does really look like a succulent piece of roast pork...

then dinner and off to shilin night market XDXDXD and after that we went to the midnight book shop... XDXDXD though i cannot find the books that i want... i is a banana and it is all in chinese

The next day we got up for a mistake... we went to Yanmin mountain in the cold breeze and rain... totally not the season to visit ... we were the only tourists... XDXDXDXDXD and after that Yeliu Geological Park... i loved this place ... we saw the queen victoria's head (just watched Young Victoria last night) and the waves were wasome... a must return place if i ever go taiwan again... XDXDXD and then the fish market... bought a lot of noice salmon floss... though my mom didn like it... XDXDXDXD and next off Qiu Fen... the place where Hayao Miyazaki got inspired for spirited away and it really does look like it ... XDXDXD you will recognise it when you get there XDXDXD

After that went to tin dai fung, famous for their siu lung pau,... but i don think i want to return there again... cause it takes 1 hour to seat if you didn't reserve and it was a very packed place... the food... er

not as noice as i have expected it to be... it was all steamed buns... and to me it wasnt as good as dragon i... but the mascot is cute XDXDXDXD and after that we went to taipei 101 went all the way up there...

after that some of my colleagues went off somewhere else but i returned back to the hotel with those who wanted to rest.. and slept in till the next day... but before that a noice warm bathtub time... XDDXDXD sorry mimi i took so long... XDXDXD

on the third day, we took it free and easy and went out after lunch XDXDXD first stop ximen... mi suah was good... XDXDXD but the things there are really pricey... and after that we went to longshan temple... that is where you go for exotic food like snakes and creyfish... -,,-ll and after that back to shilin... where i spent my last NTD notes there XDXDXDXD and the next morning its back to kl~

twas fun and all XDXDXD just noting it down here for memory sake XDXDXD angel made me bought something and i made her buy a pair of nike shoes XDXDXD pink as requested XDXDXD and she had to buy a new luggage to fit in all the stuff XDXDXDXDXDDXXDDXDXDXXD and i had to sit on it to let her zip it XDXDXDXDXDXD

oh well it was really fun... and not long after that we celebrated our boss's birthday in a mini cruise ship, food from putrajaya shangrila is not noice...XP but we had the company XDXDXD and mr kaz really went all out drunk even before he drank anything... =..= made us dance... and all OTL

XDXDXD well serve as another fun occasion with the office XDXDDXDXXDXDXDXD

and now cny... its my mom's year XDXDXD rabbit~

well nothing much really .., worked whole day yesterday and still made it in time for dinner XDXDXD watched young victoria and had 'zai choy' XDXDXDDX

oh and baked cookies with sue last week... the first batch got all burnt XDXDXDXDXDXD

and momo went back to hometown on tues... =3=

and that is all for updates now XDXDXD don't know when i am going to update again XDXDXD

and perhaps you get what i mean of being lost ... i strayed from the topic again XDXDXDXD

sigh... i think for now i will let things go with the flow a bit... but one day i will break the cycle XDXDXD and venture to something else XDXDXD like carson ... really broke the cycle and became a tutor~ XDXDXD

need to think bout portfolio then~

jellypiq~

till then

~ja

Shinichi

oh and am planning for my April Japan trip XDXDXDXD ~ going to have loads to tell by then XDXDXD

UPdates~!

2010-10-31T23:03:00.002+08:00

Its been a long long while and i think its time for me to update some stuff in here

XDXDXD life's been too good to me that i kinda stopped blogging for a while... daymn

anyway this is the list of couples that i wish to congratulate ... they all got married in like less than 3-5 months ago...

XDXDXD this is not in order by the way XDXDXD

yawyee and his new wifey

jin wei and tee chin

jee hean and lemon

ah mun and her new hubby

(all of them are from my office, not sure when my boss is getting married though XDXDXD)

and last but not least

my sis and my new brother in law XDXDXDXD

jessica and eric

XDXDXD

hmm i think next in line would be annie and siti kua... they are of age after all XDXDXD

anyway congratulations to the wonderful new couples XDXDXD

and so...had a few good turns in my career ... which is good.. means i'm staying probably for another year...depending how well they are treating me next... and then i feel like keeling the client cause of the info delay... =x= and i guess i need to reformat my pc... its so slow i couldn't paint anything... making psd slow... SUPER SLOW

and i have expanded my collection of harems XDXDXD in the office especially now that i am not the only female artist there XDXDXD i have swee, annie and mimi now... XDXDXD and the new pa if i can approach her well XDXDXD

and i have to say this.... Reign of Assassins... is so WT' '... its an ok movie... but the plot makes you want to SWEAT BIG TIME... all this fighting over a sausage... you WILL have to sweat ... =w=lll

Oh and Andrew Lloyd Webber did a sequal to Phantom ... Love Never Dies

I wonder if this will be as good as the original XDXDXDXD

till then XDXDXD

Life Thoughts

2010-08-25T00:22:00.002+08:00

I don't know if I am sane or not XDXDXD but there are some thoughts in my life lately that its just going on so wild...

XDXDXD I know its been a long long while... and today I felt like updating some things my colleagues been telling me

... they told me that men are engineered like it is... XDXDXD

According to them... MEN..

- would not socialise with the in laws that well...

- would not expect any presents from their gf

- would not want to think of what to buy for birthdays and anniversaries

- would avoid doing anniversaries on an annual basis cause that will lead to a monthly basis

- would not go salsa with your dad

- would dislike going to dinner with the whole in law family

XDXDXD ok i wonder how much of that is true? XDXDXD 100% ??? i am leaving for comments or feedbacks ... cause this is what my colleagues kept telling me...

anyway things have been noice in the office... played the whole of Little Big Planet with everyone in the office and once we ran out of LBP we started playing Street Fighter 4... we are playing while we can... cause next month new projects are coming in and we will be having moare and MOARE female staffs XDXDXD hurray~! well i think there will be male staff too~ XDXDXD

that is life in the office so far...

and lately i've attended a retirement plan talk... XDXDXD i just started working for a year and here i am listening to this... bah... lots of you would think... dude that's way toooooooooooooooooooo early....

well ... think again

all retirement plans are a race against the clock... i may be 22 this year... (oh gotta thank my office for celebrating a super belated birthday for me > < ~ thanks guys~!!!) and retire probably say 55...

that is like 33 years eh... long way to go... not...

imagine this... you start off with your first job... and when that happens, you start to take in responsibilities... bils will come in, for an example, if you have to help support your family bils, your study loan if you have any... then you buy your first insurance, you pay your parents, you pay for transportation, food, phone, and what's left at the end of the day... say probably a few bucks... how to save when i can't even afford it?

then probably you get an increment ... thinking... hey i deserve some luxury...plus the previous things i've said and there goes the money... no sooner... you'll be getting a car... and here comes the car loan... then comes in the petrol... and in a blink of the eye... its gone...

as you work on... and live on... you'd probably be able to save some... then cupid hits you and comes the next level of life... building your family and nest... you have to save for the wedding, the honeymoon, the ring, the stupid expenses of unnecessary spending... boy... when do i get to save for my retirement... aiyo... later la...

later la... comes in the bundle of joy... woohoo... you forgot to invest in condoms... so another hole in your fortune... sigh...another mouth to save... and who knows how many more to go...

and by the time THEY settle... you go like... sheet i'm 50 already... am i going to continue working after another 5 years??? ... wait there's the EPF ~!!! what a life saver... then your kids go like "mom, dad, i want to study overseas~!!!" ... OTL ... so now what? you can't say no to that... so... continue working??? thought so...

so when do you start planning for your retirement??? how much do you think you need per month to survive independently??? and for your info... the government wont allow you to work more than 55-60 years of age...

how much can you collect in 5 years for a 30 years or more of living expenses?? how much do you think you need to live comfortably for the rest of your life??? please don't suicide at the age of 55-60...

anyway think about it ... i have yet to start mine but... i'm thinking about it... how bout you?

~shinichi~

BGM : Picture Perfect by Monkey Magic

Change

2010-06-19T00:42:00.003+08:00

Wow... how time flies...this blog is already 5 years old... since 2005... and here i am writing in this internet diary @ blog... i believe its time for a change... in fact... i've changed a lot... in terms of personality... in terms of being a person... and in terms of dreams and my goals... i would like to take this opportunity to thank this blog of mine for keeping all those silent tears of mine and keeping my moments in tact while i grow away from the past...

if this were to come in to mind... it would never have 5 years ago... i was still a high school grad with nothing in hand... and probably this blog started when my first relationship ended and this blog has been with me when i begin anew... X3 however how far can i stretch this relationship depends on our two souls... if we can blend into one...

However that isn't what i want to note down today...

I have come to a point where i am quite lost again... i am employed... but that is not enough... i wanted more... i wanted to achieve something...i want to realise a dream... at the moment i am not full nor am i half full... i am at the first drop of water waiting to be dripped into a bigger pot... i don't only want to be full .... i want to overflow...i want to extend as far as my mind could stretch... and reach till i could hug the universe within my arms... greedy aint i ...XDXDXD

But at the same time... i have responsibilities... i want to care for my partner... i want him always by my side... i want to be his pillar of strength and i want my shoulder for him to rest upon... his dream fulfills my half... but yet... i still want my own dreams to be fulfilled... words are only as much as i can speak upon... i need a motivation to build my own fortress...

a change of priorities has altered my dreams... i hope this would be a positive one... both in mind and soul... i pray for a good change... XDXDXD

~shinichi~

BGM : You are loved I(don't give up) by josh groban

Horrible Week

2010-05-29T10:19:00.004+08:00

I think i had one of the most horrible week ... well i shan't let the pass be without noting it down...

well i think i would say it was more eventful than horrible ... oh well... it started off with a flu for the beginning of the week ... then michelle's birthday at the end of it... XDXDXD we enjoyed the sashimi and all... and on that night itself... Nelly need some help... and i couldn't help the following morning so my bf did it for me X3 thanks momo... and then we skipped aikido that afternoon.... oh well... one month of no training liao.... sheet am skipping exam this month as well XDXDXD and then the following monday... a stupid letter arrived saying i owe Celcom 900 plus ... what the heck... some joke this is... and so bla bla bla i called the lawyer that sent me the letter, made a police report and then went to celcom on tues... get the fraud application form and i need to prepare some documents and now i need to find this commisioner of oath ... who was not in today... damn it why did you write that you open on saturdays for half a day when you're not open on saturdays... oh well maybe cause it was wesak on friday... oh well... damn this whole procedure is damn leceh.... well that was the summary for those who don't know and thanks to those who tried to help... i don't know how this bugger did it since i never lost my IC even once.... its amazing it got my office address and my ic no. ... don't think my office colleagues did it cause... they earn way more than i do... and seriously i aint paying for something i did not recieve... and now i have to go through all the trouble to do this whole stupid thing... damn you... and i hate my colleague who called me fat which made me unleashed my anger towards my sis.... yea i know we all tend to blame someone for something we cannot apprehend... and i loved the dinner and charades we had at ashleys' room ... love the companionship ... though i am itching for some munchkins... damn...

~Shinichi~

The Lovely Bones

2010-04-24T22:47:00.003+08:00

Its been a long while since i last blogged and recently i've watched a lot of movies and amongst them was this movie... Lovely Bones... It was pretty sad that this movie wasn't as well recieved as it should have...to me its the best movie i've ever watched in ages... and i hope to read the book soon...XDXDXD

I was lucky enough to have watched this movie before it got stripped down from the showing list in the cinemas here and it was really sad that it was only me and my bf and a few other couples watching this... i mean the lady next to me puked... -..-lll anyway it was an AWESOME movie... screw rotten tomatoes for the 37% only... XP

anyway work is ... tiring... OTL decided to resume blogging cause my mom said my england will deteriorate if i don't write something and so i am doing this right now... somehow working life totally killed my english since its a japanese game company and more than half of the people there seldom talk in correct english... good gawd... its a crime... TAT but my cantonese is getting better... maybe i should teach my bf more eng... yea... XDXDXD

anyway nights yo... am sleepy already

~ja~

Shinichi

Definition of Wealth

2010-01-17T01:16:00.004+08:00

You know... today... if i want to buy a house... it will take up till the next generation to be able to pay the bank back the loan... and do you know why... cause a house/apartment/condominium today costs easily between 400k to 1.5 million... yeap you heard me alright... 1 mil plus... do you know how crazy that amount it or not... you can like migrate to another country with that money or go for a cruise and all... i mean property these days go fly sky high into the sky ... and i go like... i will never be able to own a house in my life time... what more a place of my own by the time i am 25... TAT... sigh... and tomorrow... will be seeing a place... for bout 300k.. and its at the top...but still being the highest floor means that any leak or anything ... you kena first... ouch... plus the surrounding there's pretty quiet so... just a look... nothing much... will continue my search for a property... taking it real slow and easy no rush but at the look of things... =..= if i don find one now... i will never be able to afford any...TAT

damn...

anyway... back to topic... how do you define wealth...often or not we hear health is wealth... true... but to maintain our health we need a lil wealth...or at least a certain amount of wealth... but before we think a bit further i wanna retell this story... i might have mentioned it before but i want to stress it out again... there was this flute player who lives happily with his family in the mountains ... he had enough provision and enough for his life... and then one day a tourist comes and took him to the town... and from there he realized he was poor ... and decided to leave the mountains into the town... now what do you think befalls the flute player? do you think he was poor... or he became poor... somehow at this time and age... you will definately think that the flute player is poor but think about it... he had enough in the mountains for him and his family... if were to remain there... for my opinion he is the richest man in his life... if he were to come to the city... he is a beggar... even if you say the city has all the 'good' stuff like cars and shopping malls... pretty fancy clothes... and all... if you can't afford it... you're pretty much poor... sometimes... we just need to live in contentment... what is wrong to live in moderation... and yes we all demand for a better living standard... but to have that living standard... we are paying off and living beyond our means... that is the first step to becoming a poorer person... its not a matter whether you have an iphone or a fancy car... or if you have the latest fashion in the market or eat at the most priciest restaurants... if you can't pay the bils...you just end up gaining more debt... anyway... i am still a kidult that just started working... what do i know of the world's pleasures... XDXDXD anyway peace out... and tell me what is your definition of wealth XDXDXD peace out yo...

~ja

~Shinichi~

BGM : Natsu Yuuzora by Kousuke Atari

Resolution

2010-01-05T00:37:00.004+08:00

This is how an old saying goes..."Our health begins with the colon"

While most girls want to slim down or lose weight... all i want is to be constipation free for the rest of my life...

a lot of us find it difficult to be embarrassing to even think of it... but think about it... there is nothing embarrassing or shy to even mention about it... we all need to detoxify and what ever goes in must come out ... eventually...

and scientific proof has it that females get it more than males... so i believe... there is nothing to be shy about... we should be sharring our methods in curing them rather than suffering in silence...

for me all it took was a glass of milk and a piece of fruit in the morning... and a session after breakfast.. and the rest of the day i can pretty much eat whatever i want ... but of reminder to not take too much chocolate or anything that will cause constipation... like flour, sugary food... or even too much dairy products... for some people milk will give a reverse effect ... so fruits and nuts are another choice... but of course ... these are my methods... milk is not the best of options cause it might cause gastrict and all... so its more of fruits and nuts...XDXDXD man i have been really food conscious lately... but not to the extend where i will be paranoid... but this is just a small sharing that some might find it hard to speak about or even talk about it... but in every now or then we get constipated... be it from diet or from stress... we just need to remember to balance out our lives... XDXDXDXD

ah~... its the new year... another year... another year older... TAT

and growing more into an adult... argh... now that is stress...

Oh and the fireworks at desa park city was gorgeous... we just sat at the field and there right before our very eyes are the fireworks... XDXDXDXD so close yet so far... though we should have went there after dinner... could barely get a seat at any restaurant there....TwT but atleast we had fun... XDXDXD and got stuck there for like until 2am ish... XDXDXD couldn't get out from the carpark....XDXDXD

i wish to see more fireworks in the future =w= with you~<3

and its back to work TAT...

~ja

~Shinichi~

BGM : Mahaloha by Yuna Ito

Splashing Fun Christmas!!!

2009-12-27T13:26:00.002+08:00

We all got wet XDXDXD Thanks Ashley, Nelly and Michelle for inviting me to your place for a christmas party XDXDXD

This years christmas was just as fun as it can get ... on christmas eve, momo's tutorial got up in the forum and we went to the curve to watch the kidults spraying each other with foam at the strike of midnight but they got impatient so they started off earlier XDXDXD and i watched avatar... to me its another version of pochahantas... XDXDXD aside the 3d and the uber cool concept design of the world... just probably at the beginning its hard to adjust to the characters ... cause i think the renders in the middle got better and better until the end... XDXDXD but the whole feel of it gives me the ff10 feel ... when tidus and yuna were in that forest together... swimming and the whole forest was lit up by fireflies i think XDXDXDXD but overall quite good la... don't talk bout the story... i didnt get it why his twin brother died... but anyway i shouldn't spoil more than i should... teh o's going to kill me... XDXDXD and i had a wonderful dinner at senturu again... twas was lovely... but the portion... fear it wasn't enough though...and then on saturday i went there again with teh o and nelly and charm... XDXDXD and they had a test of wasabi eating...=..=lll XDXDXDXD and my outing ended with yam cha with hana-ah-pah-in-law... XDXDXD

ah its been a while since... with momo back at home town... am going to miss him for a few days... pray he had fun too XDXDXD nothing much of an update... the days are just work and play and all sorts of inbetweens XDXDXD

~ja

~Shinichi~

BGM : Shining On by Yuna Ito

Being an Adult ... sucks...

2009-12-11T00:51:00.004+08:00

From the beginning i never wanted to grow up... i've always find it easier being a kid and remain as i am... why is it not ok for us to be young and run free from responsibilities? why can't we just be friends and fight just for fun... why can't we just stick out our tongue as an insult and remain it that way... why can't we get offended and then easily forget it after they say sorry... why can't we play and learn and watch the beautiful skies together... noooo.... we have to grow up...

why????????????

when we are an adult... we have responsibilities... we have to earn money to buy food... we have to pay insurance and we have to pay for bills and pay for our medical stuff on and so on... well paying isn't just enough... things become more expensive....that is what we call inflation... i mean why can't we pay the same price in the future? why do we have to buy a house when we can all live together... well there are privacy issues so let me rephrase my question.. why does the price of properties go sky rocket high????? why why why? and the biggest question... why are we aging and in the end, end up at 6 feet below... so why are we working so hard?

because

life is short

life is beautiful

life is meaningful

ah no matter what... i still love being a child... =w=lll ah~ let me daydream a bit

~ja

~Shinichi~

BGM : Spinich Rag ???!!

si seulement je pouvais lui manquer by vox angeli

2009-11-28T13:34:00.003+08:00

Il suffirait simplement
Qu'il m'appelle
Qu'il m'appelle
D'où vient ma vie
Certainement pas du ciel

It's simply enough
That It calls me
That It calls me
From which comes my life
Certainly not sky

Lui raconter mon enfance
Son absence
Tous les jours
Comment briser le silence
Qui l'entoure

It tells my childhood
His abscence
Everyday
How to break the silence
That surrounds

Aussi vrai que de loin
Je lui parle
J'apprends tout seul
A faire mes armes
Aussi vrai qu' j'arrête pas
D'y penser
Si seulement
Je pouvais lui manquer

As true as by far
I speak to him
I learn all alone
To make my weapons
As true as I can't stop
Thinking of it
So only
I can miss him

Est ce qu'il va me faire un signe
Manquer d'amour
N'est ce pas un crime
J'ai qu'une prière à lui adresser
Si seulement
Je pouvais lui manquer

Will it gets me a sign
"Lack of love"
Is not this step a crime
I have a prayer addressed to him
So only
I can miss him

Je vous dirais simplement
Qu'à part ça
Tout va bien
A part d'un père
Je ne manque de rien
Je vis dans un autre monde
Je m'accroche tous les jours
Je briserai le silence
Qui m'entoure

I would say to you simply
That besides that
All is well
Apart from a father
I'm lack of nothing
I live in another world
I hang myself everyday
I will break the silence
That surrounds me

Aussi vrai que de loin
Je lui parle
J'apprends tout seul
A faire mes armes
Aussi vrai qu' j'arrête pas
D'y penser
Si seulement
Je pouvais lui manquer

As true as by far
I speak to him
I learn all alone
To make my weapons
As true as I can't stop
Thinking of it
So only
I can miss him

Est ce qu'il va me faire un signe
Manquer d'amour
N'est ce pas un crime
J'ai qu'une prière à lui adresser
Si seulement
Je pouvais lui manquer

I would say to you simply
That besides that
All is well
Apart from a father
I'm lack of nothing
I live in another world
I hang myself everyday
I will break the silence
That surrounds me

got the lyrics from this webbie http://outtheway.blogspot.com/2005/08/calogero-calog3ro-si-seulement-je.html

so the credit goes to this person... i don't know french at all... XDXDXD

Food Glorious Food~!

2009-11-01T12:03:00.004+08:00

It was free movie friday in my company, and during lunch time... i opened the file and i found this documentary movie - Food Inc. ... Was curious so i opened the file... and ate while watching... how food were processed and made... and how they were breed and how they were treated... both the workers and the animals... and how they were slaughtered... thank god my mom gave me bean curd (tofu) that day... if not i think i might puke...

Anyway this is another reason why i dislike the states... no offence... they've got great buildings and great talents out in the US... but don't you realize... that both the good and the bad all came from them...=..= Most of it...they introduced things that are only beneficial at that time and as time goes by it turns into something bad...=..= and what i like bout them is that they do realize it and take actions for it... but it doesn't rule out the fact that they started it first... with all the good intention and all... and slowly making it into a passion for greed... the food industry... despite how small we look at it is actually a very big thing... i don't want to spoil anything from the movie... in fact i think everyone should watch it... whether you are an american or not... i'll definately not look at my food the same way... but here its pretty much different... i do see how the people slaughter the chickens... they do it in the market of the area where i grew up... the pig was in a whole solid form where i can see the butcher slice a bit for sale... that is from the market... but i don't think so with the supermarket... i can see pink bruises on the raw chickens for sale... well pork and beef are not commonly sold in supermarket cause of the "halal" issue... which comes to think of it... i think that came in handy... because of the halal issue... the people here are more specific on where the food comes from... and what they are made of... so that is one good thing i guess...XDXDXDXD but for a whole different purpose... the halal system does look out how the the food were made... especially the processed food... because the way they were made must be the "halal" way... XDXDXD well there goes one score for the muslim rule here... but still we gotta be more careful for the more common products... which makes me think that... "cloudy with a chance of meatballs" does serve as an educational movie in a way... there was one part of the movie where the kids had too much candy... and got sick... and the mayor for overeating and ended up pretty huge himself...

Recently i too was being conscious bout the things i eat and the amount i consume... not the fact i wanna go on a diet streak but ... being on the health conscious side... cause of my working environment... i work from 10-7 so says the contract but most of my colleagues stay till 10-11... i did that a few times myself and the next day i have to go at 10am again... its very tiring and it does make me feel tired... sitting there and stare at the pc the whole day is not going to help either... that is why i go training on weekends... to sweat out ... XDXDXD and to stay away from the pc on weekends as much as possible... XDXDXD but i can hardly do that... so it boils down to the diet... work is stressful... and it will be like this no matter where i go... so i guess i gotta get used to it XDXDXD but overall... eating in pretty much allows me to save a lot... i cannot afford a lot of expensive stuff... and when i realize it... my bf ended up paying up a lot... i am so bad...TAT... so i shall be less demanding... and go for cheaper resources XD or i make lunch... which i am bad at it... probably make it a once a month thing to eat at a nice posh restaurant XDXDXD had too much of them last month so gotta cut down... anyway here is the link http://www.foodincmovie.com/ ... and if you can find the movie... watch it... its quite heartbreaking... and it all boils down to the truth... that the food industry... is not only monopolizing all but condemning those who tries to defy them... look at mcD charging presses against the local McCurry restaurant... that doesn't sell burgers but sell curry... =..=lll... just cause they sound similiar... but they are not even pirating in the first place... they are just... they like to sue anything and everything... XDXDXDXD ok that was just a joke... anyway just a reminder... you don't have to eat entirely healthy... just eat safely... by doing that ... you help safe the environment too... just watch the movie and you'll know XD

~ja

~Shinichi~

BGM : Amrita by Yui Makino

O o its been a while

2009-10-18T14:23:00.002+08:00

XDXDXD it surely has been a while since i last blogged... anyway quite a few things happened while i was away from this blog... erm like... TEH O, NELLY, MICHELLE, ASHLEY AND YON HUI IS BACK XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD
they were supposed to be back yesterday... but... there was an air strike so the pilots were rioting in India so their flight has been delayed... TAT XDXDXDXD lets yam cha now that you guys are back...
and before that... i think last few weeks... some car from behind me banged my car and subsequently so did 2 other cars...so the four cars trailed each other to the police station nearby... that wasn't so bad ... if only they didn't ask us to go to another police station... =..= pretty dumb isn't it... and then we went on a treasure hunt for the bloody police station ... thanks momo for accompanying me... if not i would definately be lost... TwT ... and after that... i realise... everyone in my office drives expensive cars... and uses iphones... TAT gosh the pressure of the unfortunate... oh and a few weeks before that was a mini earth-quake... don't know if you guys felt it but my company sure did... and i guess that pretty summarized it ...XDXDXD just a quicky... nothing much to say about that... working life sure taught me a lot of things and it was pretty fun after i get to know them and thank you momo for the wonderful nights of sushis... we have got to stop... and get a little bit in control after this XDDXD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Negai by Ayaka Hirahara... i never get bored listening to her songs

Malaysian Cars

2009-09-25T22:10:00.002+08:00

I came across someone in fb posting this... and i go ... way to go ~

even the old proton saga had better reviews than the new kelisa and myvi XDXDXD

XDXDXD its just something to laugh at... i mean... poor thing ... but i couldn't agree more... XDXDXD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : the videos...

Balls

2009-09-19T01:09:00.002+08:00

If you think you have got balls of steel ... i feel like kicking one right now XDXDXDXD
well ... i wouldn't want to do that cause who wants to get their leg clustered?
anyway... i felt the worst at the beginning of this week... i mean... i have been given the easiest of assignments and i couldn't do it... i mean i felt like i couldn't do it... so it was the worst day ever... =..= but after that ... things went for the better... even though i did it but i feel like i took the longest time to do the simplest thing... i mean what the heck man... i was suppose to get it right and ... it just WONT ... man it does feel shitty when i can't get the work done... i mean... it sucks... but in the end... i overcome it and i mean it when i DO NOT WANT TO SEE BALLS FOR THE REST OF THE MONTH... at least i ain't saying for the rest of my life... not like i can avoid seeing a ball in the fields where the kids runs and play.. psh...
anyway... am starting to feel the stress and fun at work... i mean slowly am getting used to the guys there... and i mean all men there XDXDXDXD and the 3 other female staff.. one of them being the maid... and the other 2 are the secretaries... =..= small company needs 2 secretaries... anyway~~~~ back to my office... they are made of a bunch of desperate single bachelors... those without gfs that is ... XXDXDXD which most of them are... XFXDXDXDXD and today they keep asking me about relationship things from a girls point of view... guess they don't know that i am not that kind of girl i guess... go watch the ugly truth... an awesome movie...
but its more to getting guys and not girls... man... or maybe i haven't watch enough... XDXDXDXD
anyway... i think am going to end now... tanjobi omedetto onechan... am going to paint your mushroom now XDXDXD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : My Immortal by Evanescence

First Week at PAU

2009-09-05T01:22:00.002+08:00

I got to tell you how scared i was when i first arrived there... could barely ring the bell for them to open the door for me... =..=lll stood there for 5 minutes... then i rang it... o O
and there they go like "Hey its the new girl" and so i went in...twas... a very professional like office... seriously loved it because of the feel... and when i got there... was offered a temporary table... and then when i got briefed by the 3d lead.. i was suppose to do something that i think I SUCK THE MOST... animation... TAT
and i went like... what?! and after some protocal things that has been explained ... i am like off on my own... no training what so ever... just do the animation...=A=lllllllllllllllllllllllllllll it was ages since i did any animation...
i stumbled the first one... but the second and the following few... was ok... but the first day did scare and shocked the hell out of me cause if i can do this one ok... they are going to dump the new project to me.... OAOlllllllll
i mean i am new here... and i am a noob fresh grad... I KNOW NUTS AND SHITS... but of course i know the basics but dumping a whole new project to me....alone... its a bit harsh TAT...
but a good opportunity also... i mean if i fail... they might not confirm me...TAT... and if i do... hey i get a great learning experience... XDXDXDXD but they did ask me to think about it ... cause they know i am not good at it and my interest was not there... but as i was doing it these few days... i felt that... its an ok job ... but a bit hassle if i were to do it alone... i am afraid of bugging people only... and i do get annoyed sometimes but that is because i want it nice and its not turning out the way i want it to be... TAT... argh... i am just scared i am not up to their expectations only TAT... well i haven't decide yet... but i finished the main blockings in 2 days and took 2 days to refine... so i took 4 days... pretty long duration though... TAT but i am scared i can't do anything else also... modeling in maxs... TAT... am scared i will take a longer time to learn ... TAT... and then i fear that i help create havoc than accomplishing the task... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
anyway i dunno... this is my first week here... did feel scared ... did feel stressed... do hope to get along with my colleagues soon... some were quite friendly XD and some pretty cold XDXDXD
and today there was this senior leaving...silly guy (another senior just one month before me) ordered the fish... cost RM200 out of the RM500 we ate... TAT poor guy had to pay for his own farewell dinner... and luckily the technical director chipped in RM100... and there was a balance of RM23 each... well now we know who not to let to decide what to order... XDXDXDXD just joking.. anyway ... was quite nice but the fish .... have tasted better for a cheaper price so... yea anyway... was wondering if i should take the risk or not... am slightly confused... and a bit afraid... T..T didn't expect a lot of things... but hey... its a job anyway... sometimes its only right to work for what you are paid... and most of the time... do things with more passion.... yea... need more passion for my work... hopefully the other characters would interest me some more... and hopefully i don't have to animate via bones again... TAT its tad bit tedious...

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Futari by Monkey Majik... reminds me of kasan... too busy with his :B i suppose XDXDXD

One Day Trip

2009-08-30T00:48:00.001+08:00

I thought he was too busy with work that it wouldn't be possible to spend the weekend with me XD
he is still busy and very indeed... thank you for taking that day off and spend the whole day with me... it was a small and short trip with just the both of us... but it was awesome... i mean i have not spend one day like this with anyone else before XDXDXDXD well when we reached the bus station... there was this lady trying to sell off her tickets because her dad is not feeling well... its not that the counter wont help her resell the tickets its just that she has to wait a while... well we didn't dare because who knows it might be a fake ticket... so we went ahead purchasing our tickets... and then ate breakfast and hopped on the bus... which was an hour later... the lady was still there... anyway we went ahead and to genting we went XDXDXD although i have been there a few times but it was never this fun XDXDXD the mist was awesome and it was really cool and refreshing up there XDXDXD although the atmosphere is awesome... the food wasnt ... twice the price and not worth it... but it wasn't for the food we were there for XDXDXD it was the experience of the roller coasters XDXDXDXDXD was really fun riding most of it XDXDXDXD it really tire him out but XDXDXD and a short trip to the casino... was not the typical los vegas style but glorious enough to attract old ladies and old men play... was heart broken when i see the way they spend... they just toss the money like paper...but its theirs and nothing can be said and done from a stranger XDXDXD and when it was time to go... i realised i bought the wrong bus tickets ...TAT the lady gave me the tickets of the time of purchase... gosh ... must be a retribution but... it was not a big deal cause it wasn't worth thinking about it... XDXDXDXD and on the way back we slept through the journey... it was tiring but fun XDXDXDXD and when we arrived back at one utama... we grabbed some real food XDXDXD subways and it was definately worth the penny...XDXDXD after that it was a good night to all of us but i know he went back and continue worked cause his boss called him when we were up there...TAT and he worked throughout the whole sunday as well... and as for me.., i was suppose to go to nilai... but my sis and i woke up late... so my parents went ahead without us and then my sis dumped me in the hands of the killer pincher beautician TAT when she was done with pinching my whole face looked badly abused and was in pink red...TAT XDXDXDXD was a painful experience but aside the pinching everything else was ok ... i guess... just not my thing to really bother but ... i guess its about time to take good care about it... just to some maintenance work... XDXDXDXD and on the way back i think i saw my art director-to-be... with his wife... she looks stunning from the back XDXDXD think he didn recognise me cause of all the pinching and all...XDXDXDXD
anyway am starting work tomorrow... today will be my last day of rest... oh the irony of merdeka XDXDXD
anyway peace out... have to attend my cousin's birthday dinner tonight... lame... he's 24... he doesn't need us to celebrate with him... and his birthday is not today man... gosh... why do we have to do it when all we do is eat and go... we don't even socialise that much with them... XP well not like ... he's a small child and we have to gather... =A=... damn... we are not kids... not even teens... the irony of my dad doing this... if he valued the family more... argh i just don't want to say it... not even worth mentioning about it... i mean... urgh
ok... fine i just don't understand how that one family who has their meals every night at the same table... can have a family crisis and as for us... who doesn't even stay in the same house be still ok... i mean... if my dad DID think about it properly... why the hell would our brothers not be staying with us from the beginning...
i mean... hello... you cannot blame us for the distance we have now... its not our fault...
anyway peace out for now ... just dont want to think about it now... just kills the mood =3=

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Te wo tsunago by Ayaka

What are we made off?

2009-08-29T01:04:00.002+08:00

52 years of independance... i mean soon to be... well its great you know... life is good compared to a lot of countries... the food, the malls, the resources and the blooming industry... but it feels more like the wrapping paper behind the knife...YOU know what i mean... have we all forgotten what our country is made off?
its made of people of multiple races... mainly the three main races... but all these while we have been accustoming ourselves to one race... we have been patiently complying to this one religion... no was not an answer... and if so... you can read the rest in this news article... and you tell me...that we don't hear their prayers five times a day, compel with their needs to pray 5 times a day, a need for them to have their special rights... have you heard us making a big fuss about it? Have you seen buddhists threatening to burn down a mosque? Have the Hindus want to make fuss with the church? ... we have respected each another for so long... why not give more respect to yourselves...

http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/index.php/malaysia/36272-protesters-threaten-bloodshed-over-hindu-temple

i mean no offence... and i may be wrong in some things... but this is the general idea we have been getting... why not show us the true meaning of being united...

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Carl goes Up by Michael Giacchino from UP
P.S this movie was awesome...XD

Round Up~!

2009-08-26T01:38:00.002+08:00

It has been a wonderful month... and it is drawing to an end soon... i wish it lasted longer... TAT...
started off with a rush and now its ending with in a rush as well...XDXDXD first two weeks was all bout my symphony and backing up files... was hell waiting there doing nothing for 6-8 hours... =A= and then there was parties ... it was a month full of birthdays... loads of people having their birthdays this month and it was a month of baking... and upgrading since my pc crashed and so i upgraded it into a 1 terra ... was awfully cheap since it was less than 300 bucks and a webcam ... yea i am missing teh o already and dell for the awesome speed of delivering my replacement in less than a week woohoo and ... since i the holiday plan i was looking forward to was like cancelled last minute... TAT it was a good rest too... but to an extend i was quite not ready ... i was too comfortable in my comfort zone... that i didn't want to get out and when i have to... i kind of break down... well maybe that was what it was... cause i felt like there are a lot of people out there expecting me to be something... when i am actually not... and that is not only their disappointment... but mine also... kept thinking how much it was horrible back then... when people always expect things from me and when i don't have them... they look away in disgust... somehow and sometimes i just need a break... but when you thought that its over it just comes back to you... yea it always does... not talking sense... but my blog... its my space to say all i want XDXDXD people just expect more... and the more they expect the bigger the disappointment... failure has always been in my dictionary... how i wish i can toss it out into the sea XDXDXD ... it just gets tired sometimes... well time to slap myself and wake up ...
work starts in less than a week... time to really get fired up... x.x though got surprises that my boss pops up sms-es at the oddest hours... XDXDXD he must be working real hard XDXDXD
and thanks momo for being there for me ^w^
its almost end of the month... i just want a holiday... even if it kills me... one day trip... genting! bukit tinggi! somewhere... XDXDXD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Keep Falling Down by Sissel...

Momo

2009-08-20T00:43:00.003+08:00

At the weirdest time ... my pc crashed... without me knowing it... TAT but i remembered that there was a slight power trip and poof my pc auto shut and i didn't switch it on again without knowing that it was spoiled... and so ...
momo's birth day begun XDXDXD well i baked a cake... and no its not poisonous and its quite edible so yea and i bought him a stalk of rose XDXDXD ... well i just thought it would be fair that guys get the chance to receive a flower too ... i mean... no one says men can't accept flowers right XDXDXDXD and this is an equal society so i guess guys can accept flowers too XDXDXD and so i rang the bell and there he was in his boxers ... and the sleepy yawn in his face... i gave him his gift XD ate brunch with him... and then ... sat down and watch him work... XDXDXD well not directly but XD hey how would you like someone starring you work anyway =A=lll all those pressure... no thanks man... and so after he was done... we went to a french restaurant...Fitou at Desa Park City... XD at the Waterfront XDXDXD it was an awesome meal XDXDXD i mean the atmosphere and the service... its been so long since there was any service like that... although i think they would do better if they had more somelier serving wine XDXDXD though what can we expect in malaysia XDXDXD anyway as i return home... oAO i see a blue screen.......................
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
TAT... bloody power trip... but anyway thanks to that ... i got a 1 terra in my pc XDXDXDXDXD
so its like a pro and con thing XDXDXD and so the next few days... i am pc-less.... god... that was like the most boring week ever and i ended up .... baking................. a whole bunch of cookies.... and yet another way to make momo fat XDXDXDXDXD well not fat but gain some extra weight... you better finish them alright... and we went scouting for digital mall... well it was... near? super near my new office... talking bout office... am so dead... with my pc doomed and less than a week left before september... i am officially doomed... i haven't really start learning how to use max yet.... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TAT i mean i just got my pc back today and i havent install a bloody thing yet... holy cow man
need to brush up me 3ds skills ... am like doomed... one month with no maya or max... am like so dead...
what happened to wanting to model a character by one month... so much for that and so much for finishing up comics by the 24th and so much for doing a cf 100 days countdown for teh o... nooooooooooooooooooooooooo
damn why did i bring all these trouble to myself...TAT gosh wish i could just kick my own butt
damn... why am i missing choir... i missed the group activity... wish i could do more... but to audition ...TAT scared of doing it alone though...TAT
i missed the choir... i missed a lot of group activities... i need to be more socialized...
yea and i would love a holiday... momo ... you owe me that at least... i WANT and NEED A HOLIDAY!!!!!
somewhere as long as its not home... HOLIDAY~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : none of course... all my data gone... for now... TAT

21 and still counting XD

2009-08-09T00:56:00.002+08:00

Some say that this is an important year and a memoriable one... and indeed it was... for me... XD i had small moderate parties which are enough for me to remember through XDXDXD i had enough experiences with big parties which i had at my house three times before this and they were great and horrible at the same time XDXDXD
oh well... i dunno... lately i have been seeing things in a very great perspective... alls positive ... alls good XD
i mean i like things in moderation... XD i mean when we look at life with a realistic goal... we can see that everything we have and the things that happened to us ... is great... what is the point of having too much when having just enough is greater XD i mean there is no waste in all means... XDXDXD
i don't need to be super rich to be happy and i don't need to be super famous to be happy... i have all the things i want now... i know that this is the beginning of my pinnacle of happiness XD... and i also expect some certain setbacks at a later point in life... i never did cast the reality away from my life... there are things and troubles to look out for too... but at the moment ... i would like to enjoy life as it is... XD

i would like to thank my college friends for the wonderful suprise they gave me at 1200 am when i was out with my high school friends... XDXDXD thanks to them both ... i had a great time XD its not the first time i celebrate it like this XD but it was none the less great...thank you XDXDXD and my darling momo for the midnight chat XD and the wonderful day that both my college friends organised a party for me... love the cake you baked mokomiki XD and pipu for the gift XD i'd like to thank teh o, ashley, nelly, yon hui, michelle, yit bo, ngai charm, danny and cheese for coming XDXDXD thanks it was wonderful... and momo thank you for being with me the whole day XDXDXD i had fun at the japanese restaurant XDXDXD food was awesome XDXDXD but its a really hidden restaurant...and the rice they make ish AWESOME you guys have got to try NIPON KAI at old klang road... its really delicious...XD its worth every penny XDXDXDXD

i had an awesome birthday XDXDXD thanks ~!

Happiness is sough after~!

2009-08-03T00:52:00.003+08:00

I don't know about you but that is what i believe in... happiness is definately one thing that we seek for... and although i am not there yet but i am on my way XD... i mean i graduated college... with a diploma only... and i have finished our final project... ok a little bit more touch up... and i've found a job... i have a loving bf ... and i have a bunch of great friends... i mean i have been very blessed and i am forever grateful for all the things i have... i mean those are the extras... that enriched my life... i will not forget the minor ones as well ... i am grateful for waking up every morning...or afternoon XDXDXD with a roof over my head and that another day has come... i am grateful for the food i take, the water i drink and the air i breathe... i am grateful my parents are alive, and i am grateful for my sister being there for me... i am grateful that i have a car and i come home safe and sound... every night ... i am grateful for the wonderful life i am living and i am grateful for being alive today.
you may think i am naive thinking about it but ... it helps thinking that life is great... it is what the minor things in life that brings us happiness... keep life to moderation and keep moving forward...

when we look at a positive realistic and moderate way of mindset, its when we are the most happiest... yes there might have been some bumps on the road but the road still goes on... remember that there is a long road ahead and these bumps and port holes that you run into is just at that moment... it may scar a bit but the road is long...
just remember we have to keep going... when there is a dead end... reverse and keep going... keep moving till you reach your destination... XDXDXD

i guess i am still naive but hey i take life in the positive flow but i also look at some other negative influence too just so not to get over the top... but its what i think i call responsibility... its mine to care... and there are things i don't want to go blowing out of proportion... so keep it moderate... that is what i think... XD
that is it for tonight's enlightment... XD may happiness befall on all of you XD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Shirushi by Mr Children from 14 year old mother

A new Step~!

2009-07-26T01:42:00.002+08:00

Wow look at the calender and its already the end of July... NEED TO FINISH MY SYMPHONY IN A WEEK~!!!!!
and i have got a lot more of matte painting to do... TAT
so far... i am very proud of my team... an almost all ladies team XDXDXDXD here is where i want to show my appreciation to each and everyone of you despite i scold and scream and shout... there is always a reason behind all of it and i hope you all understand what i am trying to do here...

michelle... you made the most problem from the start... and as expected helped out most in the end... i may not have appreciated you much at the begining but i am grateful you took my scoldings and all... thank you for your wonderful support... i hope you can help us till the end

zymz... i think i overwork you... TAT but you kept working for me in the end... ah i am so grateful... but you were a bit weird but that is ok XD cause that is you... thanks for being a great help in the group... you were the one with the least problem in the group... thank god XDXDXD peace sister... let's get this done and over with...!

nelly... being the only guy in the group... you were... quite unreliable...TAT sad to say but its the truth... but i appreciate your opinion and your sarcasm... XD however you got a lot of social education to do ... there are things you just don't understand... i hope you will in the future... and i wish you luck in india XDXDXD do slim down a bit and becareful of the water there... hope that you will bear with me for a week more... at least till we finish~!

teh o... despite being my beloved... i think i spoiled you too much... you were our main procastinator... however you get things done nicely... so =..=lll but i am thankful for all that you have done... you were our backbone and our peacemaker in the team... thanks for taking all the steam from me...

thanks for bearing with me... i know i am a horrible leader =..=lll

anyway... i had an interview... thought i screw up but they called that very day to ask me to get the confirmation letter the next day...OAO and i still have one more interview next week... and then i recieved a mail from another company ... just minutes ago... holy cow... and i have to reply back the next day after the interview...@.@ this is weird man... when i want them to reply... no reply one then when i thought they are not replying... THEY REPLY what is wrong with this world... GOSH I am at a panic state that i am not even thinking of what i did today... holy cow

TAT what am i to do???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
#%@#$%@$^@$%@#$% better than no reply right... sweat =..=lll slap yourself

~ja
~Shinichi~
PS I love you XD <3
BGM : Aishiteru by Kourin

Moving Forward

2009-07-10T21:50:00.003+08:00

Life is full of ups and downs ... which makes it balanced... when there are too much of a good thing...some bad or less happy things XDXDXD
Anyway it my convocation went smoothly XDXDXD ... thanks for the gifts... my sis and lilian... XDXDXDXD
well it didn't really strike me as i thought oh well its just a convo... an occasion like any other... and i still stayed back at the lab the night before till 2 to work... =..=lll and ended up waking up late the following morning... =A=
yea and i thought i was mentally prepared but... i was soooo not...XDXDXD well i didn't really make up or do anything fancy or dandy ... not my thing and we were off...=..= ... thanks momo for being my driver ... XD well picked up teh o and then went to the hotel... kind of early... so we got the robes.. got registered and all ... took pics and smiled alot... usual stuff... and was glad that it was an eventful day... but wasn't glad that the hotel toilet is so small... and cram... and...=..= i wore A dress... yea yea... it took me 2 days for that hunt... and i came back to the first shop i went to cause i liked it... simple and not too revealing...though i realise i think my bust is really huge and it made the skirt shorter... TAT... anyway... thanks ashley for the powder and then we went in for dinner... dad as usual is =..= mocking me at the table ... and then my mom went talking away with the aunty who sat next to me ... she said i look feminine.. compared to her daughter ... but actual fact i am no different... the only difference is that i dress for occasions... XDXDXD i wear super lousy to college... XDXDXD t shirts and jeans... no difference there XDXDXDXD and then we were called out for more photo taking....XDXDXD and then my parents left without saying anything...=..= what the hew... i've been using a lot of "and"... XDXDXD =x= we had a yam cha session after that and then ... that is when momo's car got broke into ... the boot and stole my sis's coat...TAT and my old pair of shoes... TAT... it was a tragic lost ... anyway lesson learnt... never place stuff when you arrive... place stuff before you leave... TAT sorry sis... it was my bad...

well that was my graduation... to think that three years of college just went by in a blink of an eye... i very much enjoyed this more than high school... it is as much as i love tuition at kasturi's ... the atmosphere and the people... they are so different and the diversities makes us all individuals ... but we all came back to one generalisation... we are part of the society now... we are no longer protected by our comfort zone... we must step out of it and face the world... but am i ready? am i willing to step out of my comfort zone... find a job and move on with life... what can i see myself in the future? when i look how hard my sis finds a job ... that makes her breakdown sometimes... is not a beautiful sight... i have sent my resume to 4 studios... each with its own reply... and each have its advantages and disadvantages...somehow... i felt like i lack a lot of things... there are so many more things i need to learn ... i wish i had the motivation too... i need an inspiration... an admiration... to keep myself going... but time is of the essence and there is not much that i can do...

but actions speaks louder than words... i need to do something... to make it happen... to realise something... and confirm my dream... of what i want to be in the future ...
till then sweet dreams...

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Start Line by Ayaka Hirahara

IQ Test Frenzy

2009-07-08T20:22:00.000+08:00

Free-IQTest.net - IQ Test

Different tests have different results ... XD go try it for yourself

OAO

2009-06-29T12:13:00.006+08:00

wow its been so long since i've posted anything... XDXDXDXD so i felt like posting something today ... just to update a lil... well first my condolences ... Michael Jackson has left us with his beautiful albums to remember him off... so in one way his voice will still reach us... and another actress Farah Farwatt ... not really sure who she is but my condolences anyway... -..-
well we are finally rendering at our part of the final project but to make it by the 7th is almost impossible... so i think at least let us finish rendering so we can compose the whole show nicely... i mean at least most of the work can be done at home... XDXDXDXD and there are other things to worry as well like... finding a job... RnH is well... i dunno ... been thinking about it... and i've also thought of other options like Igloo... or Moonfx or some studios... well the first one has got to be a good studio.. else i don't learn anything... =..= gosh...
at the same time... i felt like chasing up... chasing up to momo... to be atleast on par... to be good enough to be by his side ... i dunno i take it as a healthy rivalry... something to look forward to... something to chase after... to motivate myself to be better ... X3
what makes us decide our future undertakings?? what should we be doing in our life.... we have but one chance...
what my dad and momo has been telling me is right... as long as i don't become a useless person that is a small but victorious success one could ever achieve... it comes to me ... what makes us a useful person? is it to be good? or is it to be faithful to our parents... take care of them? be successful in our career... ? or just so as long as we don't depend or don't harm anyone...?
it is hard to decipher what is what and which is which for each individual... but in general... i think its all of above... the bare minimum of being a useful person... but that should not limit ourselves from our dreams... somehow there is always a barrier ... a barrier that keeps us from our dreams... a barrier called responsibility... it sometimes wear us down but at the same time... it is something that motivates us... i mean there are so many ways we can see everything... the pros and cons of each situation... and that makes me confused at most of the time... thinking if i am doing this for my dreams or doing this for responsibility... to find a job to finance myself... and my parents... despite them still being able to finance themselves but soon they might not be able too... or wonder far ... and then it comes back to my own comfort zone... am i willing to step out ... there are so many things ... so many decisions... so little time... and we are mostly entitled to only one verdict...
XDXDXD... well that is why i believe when we are given the key... at the age of 21... it is just to engage ourselves to more chains ... chains of responsibility ... XDXDXD ah~... its just like getting out of a box and realise you are in a bigger box... and the cycle goes on ... XDXDXD
oh well... i'll take a step at a time... and hope to chase upon the pace which i follow... since i've not make my decision i just want to think real carefully before engaging myself with the new challenge... XDXDXD
anyway ... final project comes first... go Cottage Pictures~!

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Sarah Brightman's Venice Concert... am actually watching the video XDXDXD damn she's awesome ~!

Facebook~

2009-06-09T17:12:00.002+08:00

Everyone is into it... facebook... Restaurant city~~~~...XDXDXDXD yeap i have finally caught the bloody facebook epidemic and has joined my mates into the game of quizes and all... plus there's twitter... TWEET TWEET...XDXDXD its june and we are still at the animating going into rendering stage... its crunch time people... convocation is a month away... and we have to finish before that... MUST...!!!!

Racism and Genderism

2009-05-29T02:24:00.002+08:00

you know i am a hypocrite... and sure damn i am... XDXDXD but this is a nice way of putting racism... our world is like m&ms it is mixed up with sooooooooo many different colors... and you can't say you only like one particular color and that is the only color you'll eat out of that whole packet of m&ms....what if that specific color is not there... o.O then what can you do ? toss the whole packet away??? XDXDXDDXD this was what was said in this youtube i saw... some silly asian guy was talking bout racism... but he was talking bout girls... T...T it should apply to all human race you dummy

and so that is what racism is all about XDXDXD a packet full of m&ms ... and remember what i said bout not going to my lecturer's studio... well now i am considering of his studio... DAMN... =..=
well i dunno... i might reconsider as well... cause jarold and kasan is already there... -..- i don't think a small fry like myself is actually needed... and he emailed yon hui and not me... =..= lagi not wanted... sigh... but he is offering the job i want... #!#$%!$%@$% damn... > < but then again i am not sure if i can actually buck up to go for the interview... i mean... i am not as good as them... not as hard core and definately not on either kasan's or jarold's level.... TAT gosh... am so ... intimidated... VERY INTIMIDATED...

well am going off to bed soon...
shall think of it over the weekend... but whatever it is... cottage picture's take priority... the final project takes priority... whatever it is... JUST LET US FINISH IT~!!!!

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Trust you by Yuna Ito from Gundam 00

I love you

2009-05-25T11:41:00.004+08:00

I like blogging... and it is my way to convey what i want to say... sometimes it is difficult and sometimes its hard... i realise i am really shy and nervous... and i am a person who thinks a lot... i came to a conclusion that loosing that ring... was a way to tell me... i can love freely... and free from my restrains... am free from any faults... why should i hide my love? why should i hide myself... and revert back to my small dark corner... i would love to change for the better... i want to love him and hope that he will love me in return... i should cast away all fears for there is nothing wrong with loving each another... i may be younger,... i may be naive and childish ... childish to think i am too young... naive to think its wrong to love you and i want our relationship to last a life time... i love you for who you are and i love you for loving me for who i am... Thank you for loving me... for i felt loved for the first time... it was never a crime to love someone... i think i have told myself that a lot of times before... and i think i never really take it seriously and as i type ... i told myself i've got a bf... and i want the whole world to know it...XDXDXDXD well that is a bit exagerating but... yea... its not a crime to love... it is no secret being together... XDXDXD i will always cheerish the times we spent together... i love you ~<3

Hello Again Jojo by Ayaka Hirahara...this song is for you

100th day

2009-05-24T23:23:00.006+08:00

Well i skipped training yesterday... holy... > <> < ... well the dinner... XDXDXDXD it was great to finally meet some of mo's friends... i mean they are really interesting people... and we were amongst the earliest to arrive XDXDXD managed to greet the bride... boy she's pretty and there was this ex-colleuge of mo's who's a hottie hot hot and she butt into my seat... XDXDXDXDXD total melt down... too bad she's not available...XDXDXD at first i thought i would be questioned there but... thank god i wasn't XDXDXD phew... friendly people and friendly faces XDXDXD except one table of doom.... the table filled with TOA lecturer's and almost all of them has taught me before... oh the horror...and there was this time i need to go to the lavatory and i saw 2 of the lecturers there ... before i head in i stepped back a little... and when they got into their cubical ... i rushed in and find myself in a cubical inbetween them...=..=llll damn the pressure sure knows how to build... and then i waited a while before coming out... thought they would be out sooner cause they went in first... but no... they came out a little later than i did and so i washed my hands and dashed out as soon as i can... gosh this is so crazy... i don't have to be afraid really... i mean why should i .... ITS NOT A CRIME TO USE THE TOILET~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!! after that we went for a stroll at the park... i took this advantage to spend the midnight with mo... as it was the mark of our 100th day... Thank you for being there... thank you for loving me... thank you for all that is worth... and then ~ my mum called...O.o not cause its getting late... but for the most weirdest thing... to send my aunt something at midnight... XDXDXDXDXDXD > < ... the next day ... i mean later... we went for a movie... and before i went out... my mom was like... "HOW CAN YOU GO OUT LIKE THIS!....GIMME YOUR PANTS!" and my dad laughed at me -..-lll she deemed my pants was not ironed thus not allowing me out without giving it to her to iron... XDXDXDXD and lectured me bout being a girl... =..= and that was why i was late... and off to the movies...XDXDXDXDXD it was such a nice date... until i lost my ring ... i remember wearing it back after the toilet... and then after the meal it was gone... TAT... i know its not an expensive one but i really liked it cause it was half of one ring... i gave mo the other... and now that mine is gone... T...........T i pray hope who ever picked up will treat it nicely... and may it bring happiness to them... i suppose... the more important things in life is to view it in the positive way ... though i will miss it... dearly... thanks momo for being there for me... and after the movie we had an ice cream healing session... and that was my 100th day with mo... Thank you for being there for me >w<... then i have to go back for family dinner... my grandad's birthday... XD XDXDXD dad was like chatting away till 11ish... so went home with cousins first... dad also need to send my brother back to kl so we went home XDXDXD i gotta say i really liked the sound of the engine in my cousin's car... i have a thing for manual cars XDXDXDXD they've got a stick XDXDXDXDXDXD oh and i've meet my cousin's bf... XDXDXD can't believe a macho guy making cakes though...XDXDXDXDXDXD but as long as they are happy together XDXDXD that is all that matters XDXDXDXD anyway... that was how i spent my day XD oh .... and do get well soon ah hing... we hope you have a speedy recovery... cheers~

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Aishiteiru by Kourin from Natsume...

Discovery

2009-05-23T00:50:00.006+08:00

you know, i've seen crocroaches and cigarette butts... mice... lizards... ants.. bugs... mosquitoes ... things that are not visible to the common human eye and lots of common stuff you can find in a toilet cubical that you are not suppose to find... but ... never have i thought that we would have a chance to find something that can only happen in anime and mangas...

It happened last night... when teh o, michelle and i were at the college toilet at 11ish pm and i used the cubical next to michelle while teh o used the one across mine... and so... the conversation went like this...i exagerate so... bear with me...

mic : hey... there's something here...
me: huh??? o.O
mic : quick come and see...
me : er... is it a rat?
mic: no
me: is it a lizard?
mic : mo
me : then let me finish first...+..+
mic : oh ok

what could be so important... ? let me show you~

somehow this was more important XDXDXDXD
something that can only be found in anime and mangas.... mushroom at the back of the toilet door XDXDXDXDXD
images are curtesy of teh o... i left my phone downstairs so no camera for me... XDXDXD
yea so when you see a mushroom growing... don't pluck it...
now that i think of it ... i think i have seen it... but not such a big reaction as i had this time.... o.o maybe i needed some companionship to make it exagerating XDXDXDXD

and to ah hing... do get well soon... and do invest in a car soon... XDXDXDXD would love to sit in the car you drive XDXDXDXD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Scarborough Fair by Sarah Brightman

Do you remember this???

2009-05-19T03:02:00.003+08:00

Gosh this is sooooooooooooooooooooo old XD but me likey

TAT couldn't find a better video ... the one with each race's representative yea... that was beautiful~

oh not forgetting gemilang XDXDXD

XDXDXD not bad la for a malaysian XDXDXD i heard she stays near my area O.O holy but as malaysian celebrities go... nothing much is to be said XDXDXD

ok i should go to bed now XDXDXD

Power Supply

2009-05-18T15:59:00.007+08:00

its been weeks... that the power supply at college kept tripping... #$!$%@#$%@#%$^#%^#&^%^*^*
can't anyone do anything about it... we are steaming here and so are the brand new pcs
the heaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat is killing us...

but mama said it wasn't the pcs at fault... then what is ...????? gosh i hope they will be ok tomorrow...
i mean it seriously is slowing us down a lot... power trips forbid us to do any more than save our work and let it go off... plus the heat from the weather is killing ... no frying us alive with a room filled with 30 pcs on the whole day
its madness i tell you... MADNESS~!!!! ah will cottage pix finish before convo... > <> <> <

anyway thanks to mokomiki for introducing sissel and angelis and vox angelis to me XDXDXD it reminded me how much i miss choir... yea i enjoy singing in groups...TAT ah~ you can't cut away 8 years of love from me... and it is amazing that these young talents have so much in store for them... i can't wait till they come out more... its a bit hard to believe that il divo and angelis were founded by the same person.... Simon Cowell ....XDXDXDXDXD yeap that's the one XDXDXDXD and he can heck spot great talents anywhere... connie talbot, susan boyle... oh well
am hoping to see greatness out of malaysia one day... though i must say i love not only church latin songs but i do like some old malay songs... the old patriotic songs... i really do... used to sing them all the time in practise...XDXDXD anyway this is angelis

there you have it... enjoy~

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Angel by Angelis
PS... Momo get well soon > <

Happy Mother's Day~!!!

2009-05-10T18:18:00.003+08:00

Its the second sunday of may~... scents of carnations fill the air, and chitter chatters were everywhere~
XDXDXD its mothers day and oh well it was supposedly just another day
but ~
decided to bake cheesecake~ XDXDXD yea so mum, sis and i went to the nearest supermarket and bought the stuff... i can tell you its packed like crazy XDXDXDXD and there were like tulips for sale? o.O what happened to carnations XDXD but anyway... mum's like skeptic at the fact the counters there like to cheat her =..=llll anyway this time i think they accidentally scanned in an extra item there... so yea my mum complaint...well that was careless but what the heck... said it only when we got into the car~... and on the way.. dad called... saying aunt is hosting a small steamboat party and the whole lot of us went...XD well this only happens on my mother's side... think my dad's side is too ... er... arrogant to host one... so that is why i am not really close with them ... but i think i am at the bridge where i don't really side on either XD ok back to topic...XDXDXD and when we got back... it was already 4 ... ooook so i start with crushing the cookies... TOLD you that we should have used mcvities instead the biscuits we used wasn't appropriate cause it absorbs water =A=llll and so crush crush until it looks really crushed and melted butter was poured in... at the same time... sis was whisking the cream cheese with the other stuff... well we kind of added condense milk and yogurt instead of heavy cream XDXDXDXD and when we were pouring the cheese... my sis was pouring and as she fill cup per cup.. she accidentally filled into her own cup of drink XDXDXDXD she nearly did the same thing with the oats XDXDXDXD and then we accidentally put too much milk into the chocolate so ... it became too watery... > <> <> <> < XDXDXDXXDXD anyway it was fished out and the batter will be reserved for another cake tomorrow perhaps XDXDXDXD
by that time it was already 6 ish~ XDXDXD and we were supposed to go to aunt's place... XDXDXD and none of us bathed...XDXDXDXD so we kind of rush and relax at the same time... typical malaysian family with typical malaysian timing...xDXDXDXD and so at 7 when the phone rang... we quickly left the house XDXDXDDXD without answering it XDXDXDXDD ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ and when we got into the car... we asked ourselves... where are we suppose to go? XDXDXDXDXDXD and so we have to call my aunt XDXDXD mum called and we all heard over the phone XDXDXDXD despite my brother didn't come back from singapore... he smsed... and my mum was really happy...> < but the eldest one didn't ... oh well...and so when we arrived we had steamboat...XDXDXDXD chat with the rest of the family... sat in a big circle and we all chatted from food to gardening to rocks o.O and to cars and to medicine and all sorts of funny things XDXDXD and then my sis told me bout her wedding plans and all XDXDXD and we chatted bout dogs and four legged snakes and all sort of weird weird stuff XDXDXDXD
and oh sorry teh o no pics...XDXDXD and its well XDXDXD not that presentable but the cheese was nice... just the crust =..=llll should have used mcvities... anyway chatted till 11.30pm and we all went home XDXDD
that was mothers day for me XDXDXDXD well could say finally acting like a girl of late...=..=lll just wanted to compensate what my mum couldn't have with my brothers... and it was on my mind... sorry it might have had a biased opinion on others... > <
and the weather is blazing hot ... superbly warm... aiks ... lets not all get burned up shall we~
peace out

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Ichiji yo ji composed by Yoko Kanno from Samply Red

Missing You

2009-05-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

Ah~ how i've missed you for the past month... ~ my darling... my knight in shining dusty armour~ my dearest, my pumpkin pie~ MY ... MY~ Daihatsu Charade~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ XDXDXDXD

yup~ my car... so what if its old... so what if its old and rusty...so what if its old, dusty and a manual~... my once hatred has turned to become my one loving possession ~ well technically my oldest brother's but i've been driving it for the past three years so i've been driving it since XDXDXDXD well others might think that driving this might be disgraceful ... but wait till you've driven mine XDXDXDXD XDXDXD its one hell of an experience... well not really but dad had the mechanic to modify it so... its pretty good~... okla not as good as other branded cars but definately a good car for me to scratch, crash and knock... =..=lll that is not a very good thing isn't it.

talking bout that.. yea i accidentally knocked a proton saga with my bro's proton wira~ and it kind of dented... ouch and so we waited till the guy came... and discussed ... well bye bye 200 bucks there... ouch > <> < and if my bro gets to know bout this... its terrible... am so not touching his car anymore...XP

yea nothing spoiled my mood today... got back the daihatsu... and then momo got new job offer and sis bought krispy kreme for me... ah~~~~~~~~ the joy~ and mother's day this weekend... ~ Happy Mother's Day to all mothers out there young and old~...XD cheers~

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : White Fire by Origa

Live Life

2009-05-05T00:06:00.002+08:00

We are all given one chance...(not sure if you all have watched this... it was bout a year ago) one chance to live and one chance to either make our lives to the fullest or waste it down the drain and mope about it... the choice is ours and change is within our hands... we may not be able to change destiny or fate... we know that we are going to leave this world one day or another but why leave with emptiness when we can always take along those great memories and a prove that we have lived~! That was what this couple did... and they changed from a very devastating fate into something unforgettable ... that 99 days ... from this clip i somewhat understand what they are trying to tell... from something so fragile, so weak yet he lived a more fulfilling life than the most of us... let's ask ourselves... are we living a life? are we here? are we really alive? even i couldn't answer whether i have been alive all these years... but i know i am very much awaken now... with all the wonderful things in life to celebrate about and so many things to be grateful for... take a minute or two... and think about it XDXDXDXD
~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Scarborough Fair by Sarah Brightman

Invitation

2009-05-03T01:23:00.002+08:00

Just when my previous post was out... so was this...=..= but i most probably will not be going... i mean its not my place... despite it just being right behind my house... and it happened without me so i suppose ... and its happening on my big day... so the more reason i shouldn't go... =..=lll i dunno but if you so happen to be an smkkbian out there... this is for you... my tribute and that is all XD the school that has changed so much since you all left and they made an error with serene's class... probably they just want to cover the fact that she was from art stream and not science... if my verdict is right... so is my decision of not going... =..=lll

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=76412392292

Reminiscence

2009-04-27T12:58:00.004+08:00

Well... it was one of the rare moments... i looked back... and so i visited my friendster account and saw so many things happened to my old friends... boy the girls just got hotter and hotter... i mean, they looked so different from the last time i saw them... and oh well it was a bitter sweet thing... never did contact with them much... don't really think i should XDXDXDD there are friends that i cherrish while others are just another passerby... and most of them are that so i guess it was fun to view at their pictures and see how they have been up to... high school was sort of ok... but college has been so much fun ... it totally brought a whole new meaning to my life... XDXDXD it has given me a whole new experience with what i really want to do and make me realise i can loosen up a little... i mean i can never be crazy in high school... i don't think i really went up to that hike... despite how much i want to i just can't express myself... there were so many oppressions and so many restrictions and made me think how much of a generalised person i am ... till this day it still is ... i can't stop thinking of blending myself into the crowd... =..=lll and i realise how childish i was and i think i cannot regret anything because at that moment... it was the decision i made and it was the safest choice... it was not the right one but it was my choice to do so... and since i was never really close to a lot of people... i find goodbyes easier to say to them... and it was... so there were some pros and cons there... how long was it since i left high school, i never really went back and visit aside getting some formalities done... despite how near my house is... i find it so distant i am with the school... woe to the emo me... XDXDXD
college definitely broaden my mind, the first year thought me of where i stand... the second year brought me a group of new friends and the third year has return my smiles... well this is based on social standings and not my assignments at all, if i want to talk bout it... first year was hell, second year was alright and third year is hell again... =..=llll XDXDXDXD yea final project... FINAL PROJECT~~~~~~~~!!!!
XDXDXD
and now that i am in my third year... i find that its that time again... almost... but i know very well there are some goodbyes easier said than others... 3 years in college kind of over write my 6+5 years in school... that was how much time has changed us... what does the future lie... what will bring us together...
friendster reminded me some stuff i forgot...XDXDXD that people come people go... that was why that website was created... just wonder how much of a connection can it make...
ok ... too much emo stuff... > <>

Recession

2009-04-25T23:23:00.005+08:00

I know its getting to a lot of us... or it already has...i remember how i mentioned i was grateful... and i still am... but maybe others might not really get it ...well i know it wasn't easy... it never was... monetary problems will still be there and not all understands what enjoyment of the little things we have left... what can a big car do and what can a small car do... big cars can go fast and smooth... and it has more spacing and more comfort in it... and because it is big... it is easy to bang too... and harder to reverse... =..= harder to find parking too... and what bout small cars... they are a bit cramp but it brings closer to you and the passenger, it may not be smooth but it still brings you to your destination XDXDXDXD plus its easier to find parking... so let us remind ourselves of the little joy that money can't buy... i am having financial troubles too ... but let us remind ourselves... that this is the time where you can enjoy the most... because we are financially tied... that is why there are better things in life than luxurious items...
well the most important thing now is... to finish up the project and get a job... well if all goes well... june... end of june is our deadline...please let us finish .... > < MUST FINISH~!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i've just read a post about Joseph Kony's children military... i must say it is a ridiculous thing that is happening... abducting children to serve the military force... its a bit sick =..=llll ....o.O you can further read about it on Aboke Abductions and Joseph Kony on wikipedia and http://therescue.invisiblechildren.com/html/ is a site that hopes to help the children within... i dunno what we can do ... but i suppose a simple awareness about the happening bout this event might enlighten us a little on what is going on somewhere else... and have a think about whether you want it to happen to your surroundings... if you don't feel its right then we should appreciate more what we have right now... that is why we should thank the past, look forward to the future and always appreciate the present... for we do not feel the lost till its gone...was inspired by master oogway from kung fu panda XDXDXD be grateful for what we recieve and be thankful for what we get.... there is nothing more that we can ask more if we don't do it ourselves.. which reminds me.. i have to start looking for a job in july ... here comes the hunt...aiks ~ja ~Shinichi~ BGM : ALateria from Tales of the Abyss by Kawai Eri

A little Dent~ > <

2009-04-21T16:45:00.006+08:00

A little dent goes a long way~...
oh well ... so i dented my brothers car... so not nice -..-lll but hey, he did worst... XDXDXD
anyway thanks to kuanwin and cheese and momo for a nice weekend trip XDXDXD i really really enjoyed it... though a little sticky but it was nice XDXDXD nice long stroll XDXDXDXD
and then on monday i woke up all blur XDXDXD and that explains the dent...XDXDXD
juniors are up and about their deadline so ... well lets share and let them have it for a day or two... sides lab 1 was renovating so ... only lab 2 left... anyway ... lets go a little side track..
i never really look into celebs and all... but everyone's got a favourite... and mine is definately
Alexis Bledel... i remember mentioning about her before somewhere sometime ago XDXDXD in this blog... and i never really post and videos so here it is... alexis bledel~~~~~~~~~!!!

yeap... my favourite actress and model alexis bledel she has the innocent look and the hot babe style... drool~* wish i had her eyes... they are BEAUTIFUL~!!!! i mean how often do you find a blue eyed girl with pale skin and a body like that XDXDXDXDXD and i like her voice too ... chibi-fied XDXDXDXD oh well XDXDXD i do miss her in gilmore girls ... wish i can marathon 7 seasons too but... can barely catch time for any shows now with the final project at hand...=..= sigh hope we can finish by june...JUNE!!!!! must finish~~~!!!!! must not dwell

yea and my mum fed me chocolates and tapioca on a very hot day... perfect remedy for throat disasters XDXDXDXD
but what the heck ... i'll eat them anyway XDXDXD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Somewhere Out There by Linda Ronstad and James Ingram

Deck 65

2009-04-15T00:58:00.006+08:00

Technically i have graduated... XDXDXD and it was a blast...
http://www.deck65.com/ is the link to my graduation campaign XDXDXD...
well the process was fun ... along the way it was a quiet and peaceful committee which is what i am thankful for
XDXDXD i think if i were more involved in it.. i would create drama ... XDXDXD yea i think i will be doing that ...
but then again i am lazy too XDXDXDXD kyaaaaaaaa XDXDXD
anyway i don't really want to comment much bout the committee ... think overall they did a great job... except for the copywriters... =..= seriously not on par... i mean... i do not doubt their proficiency in the language ... but i doubt their understanding in the concept XDXDXD and so far... as anything is concerned... it all went well... that is all that matters ... XDXDXD
the morning itself was a small rush... the night before i had to stay back to recollect the demo reels and missed dinner because of it and then the next morning they burnt it... and i got a feeling they render it out in a wrong frame rate...ouch and that made everything else so fast XDXDXDXD ...XDXDXD
then in the morning... we had to make the opening door... and carson and i was suppose to drill the handle to the wood... but our conversation went a bit wrong with all the hole and the drilling..=..=lll XDXDXDXD
oh did i mention i banged my head to this sign board above kkmart... people do becareful..=..=lll
it was all good till lunch carson dump me for his date...TAT XDXDXDXD and had to eat lunch in the lab while watching desperaux ... super sad... and then at 4 went to teh o's to bath XDXDXDXDXD
it was all good ... though the sandwich ... needed more mayo... XDXDXD

~ja ~Shinichi~ BGM : on the phone XD

Truce and Forgiveness...XD

2009-04-13T23:16:00.003+08:00

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You know... fighting with my sis has never been more fun ...XDXDXDXD NOT...
i know i always quarrel with my sis... its something we do quite very often... and being the younger sibling sure has its disadvantages... oh boy...=..=lll anyway at the end of the day ... the ice cream was the deal.... XDXDXDXD
yea ice cream... XDXDXDXDXDXD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : on the phone > <

Dead Line

2009-04-08T22:57:00.002+08:00

If i don't post anything after the 14th of April... you will know that the line is dead... ------------------------------------- am predicting my dad wont be able to pay in time so XDXDXD no internet for me... again... TAT
well as my duty as a daughter... i cannot complain too much... i will take for what is given, and make no complains for what is not... i learned it the hard way... used to be very demanding when i was a child... and as i grow older... i realize a lot of things that i have been very blessed for and am very much fortunate than a lot of other people... i believe i grew up well, even though i didn't appreciate it last time but now i am very much thankful for all the things that have happened in my life that my parents gave to me...despite there are things i dislike about my parents but there are times i feel quite thankful...its not even may yet... nor is it in june... but i am very thankful for my parents they brought me up with the importance of manners and education... despite they failed at my eating habits XDXDXD but they made me to who i am today... yea sorry mum i didn't grow up as graceful as you want me to be... i think there has been a mixed up in the gender education along the way XDXDXD

ah~ no line... well at least that can revert my sleeping habit back to 12-9 i hope..XDXDXD but i like the companionship i had so far... i like the chats we had... and eventhough we might run out of topic some times... but it is always nice to know that there is someone for me to talk to ... knowing that there will be someone there... even if you are busy ... i know that i can always feel the warmth knowing your presence is there for me... so this is what it is like to be in a relationship ... i don't know if you feel the same way i do... but i am so thankful for all the people around me... i am afraid i might get too comfortable that i might abuse it... > <> <> < somehow i want to commit more... and i hope i commit enough...
sometimes i feel like a mirror... i mirror the way people treat me... gosh talk about originality XDXDXDXD anyway i just feel so damn grateful...O.O what is wrong with me... i mean... others would already be complaining cause i am going to get my line cut off and here i am so happily talking bout gratitude... and i am not even getting half my monthly allowance ... but here i am not even bothered... just a bit tight but .. enough to survive and here i am ... being grateful... someone slap me XDXDXD
despite all that ... i am still grateful... and nothing else can change my mind... XD am so thankful for everything i have right now ... so grateful to be alive, loved and pampered...XD
yea and my sister's hair wouldn't stay down...XDXDXD other than that she is pretty whinny cause she is sick... well perhaps once she gets a job she won't anymore... XDXDXDXD and i just got a kiss from her XDXDXD arigatou~
happily blessed... XDXDXD

Chase

2009-04-07T00:32:00.006+08:00

It is very rare that i have nightmares... and this morning i just had one...

It happened at a shopping mall with a lot of toy shops and at the highest floor there was a pet shop... it was huge and filled with all kinds of animals the people there were all familiar faces... and so i went there and saw this aquarium with a number of cute mutated frogs... yea... cute frogs... they don't come together but its way cuter than keroro... so i bought two... one yellow and the other reddish in color... and so they came along with me out of the shop... half way walking... i decided to peek at what the two frogs are up to... and so they were like trying to jump on one another... somehow... the red frog seems to be bigger than the yellow one... and somehow the yellow one managed to jump on the red one... and gobbled it...O.O.. holy... and then it turned white... with black spots like a dalmation... holy... and so at first i thought it was nothing... but then... the frog kept starring at me as i walk... and then...i ran... something was wrong... and i brought it back to the shop... as i ran...the frog escaped... and somehow it was bitting at my shoe... i immediately took off my shoe and placed it in a bag... and brought it along with me to the pet shop... once there... the mood entirely changed... the lights were all green and dark... and so... i went in and told the shop keeper bout it and she told me a lot of other customers said the same thing... and so i returned the frog... and so she took it and decided to let nature takes its' course... she fed it to the snake... a black, vicious snake... i stood away... as she fed it to the black snake... there the snake swallowed it... after a while... it turned agressive... it snapped here and there... banging its head to the aquarium... and finally it became bloated... the color turned white... and finally exploded... and amongst the waste was the frog now even further evolved... still intact... the frog just sat still... starring at me... mean while there was this professor with poison in a syringe and decided to poison the frog... he flooded the aquarium with water but the frog remained there... and injected the poison with the water... and the frog just lay still not moving an inch... but it was still starring at me... finally the water turned green and so we thought the frog has died... and when we turned out and look... there were a bunch of humungous frogs gobbling up humans... O.O

Frog

Old dream interpretation books say that frogs are a good omens and represent happiness and great friendships. From a more modern point of view, frogs may be considered symbols of the unconscious because they live in the water. Frogs also represent transformation of the positive kind

To see a frog in your dream, represents a potential for change or something unexpected. The frog may be a prince in disguise and thus, signify transformation. Alternatively, the frog symbolizes uncleanness, fertility, or rebirth.

To see frogs leaping in your dream, indicate your lack of commitment. You have a tendency to jump from one thing to another. Alternatively, it may suggest that you are taking major steps toward some goal. It parallels your progress.

To dream that you are catching a frog, signifies your carelessness concerning your health.

To hear the sounds of a frog in your dream, indicates that you have not accomplished what you wanted.

that can't be right =..=lll the frog evolved into a very scary way... how is it positive???
but yea i fear things that cannot die... and i fear of humans too > <

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven

MBA and PhD

2009-04-05T18:33:00.002+08:00

Well after high school, we aim to study for a foundation for a diploma... or straight away we go get a degree... ok... after that a masters and then a phd... however what does MBA and PhD really stand for?
Today, before leaving the house, my dad and i were watching this show for super rich bon bons show called "The Duke" and they were like talking about MBA... nothing to do with masters or bachelors degree... but it stands for Married but Available... O,o talking bout rich brats... aiks..
and they discuss bout why men/ladies cheat even after marriage... o.O gosh... i don't even wanna think about something that far first... just want to explain what MBA meant and that was it XD
then we have PhD... we all know what it means... XDXDXDXD well for people who hate studying yes... its permanently head damaging... but for others ... its a future... my cousin who just came back last wed from california told us bout his studies there... after completing his degree... he wants to further his education to masters and then to a phd... wow... big dreams... good one... but he wants to further venture into finance when he is studying bio-tech...=..=lll
weird combi... but maybe ... who knows... XDXDXDXD that is his future ... and as a relative... you have my blessing XD ... well of course.. i would be asking myself the same question as i did before... to repeat this on my own blog for the third time is just going to bore not only to you but to myself as well...XDXDXDXD
but it will always be at the tip of my mind... =..=lll
anyway today we went to nilai memorial park to visit my mom's side... well i wasn't so close to my grandmother... but she is still my grandmother so... willingly we all went... XDXDXD on the way back dad lost his way XDXDXD
almost on the way to ipoh already XDXDXD oh well... then went to old klang road for grandma...XD dad's side...
i don't really remember her... i can barely ... she died when i was pretty young... so i don't really have any fragmentation of any sort of memory of her... except for one embarresing moment... =..=lll i was carrying my pillow during her funeral... =A=lll my mom kept that pic and showed it to me a few years ago... gosh...
and as far as i can remember... i only brought that pillow out once... and that was it...most of the time... i leave it in the car XDXDXDXDXD visiting day was always warm and full of sunshine... =..= so it was very warm...the ray just loves to shine on us...XDXDXD though i must say... i loved the environment they have there... might wanna buy a spot for myself there XDXDXD just joking ... but seriously... the view was breath taking... the ponds were filled with lotus and the grass was really green... the trees covering the concrete jungle and the air was quite serene.... except for this few weeks...=..= lots of people... but hey its a huge place...a good investment...> < then again... its something in the future... lets not discuss this any further...

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Inochi no Namae from Spirited Away composed by Joe HIsaishi

Lost~!!!

2009-03-31T00:07:00.004+08:00

At times we look up in the sky and we see a pure blue sky. Somewhere somehow there will be clouds. When i look back... it felt like only yesterday i was one, and the week before the start of college, back in high school, back in primary and finally till the very day, i remember my cousin-in-law... she was moving out. She told me, she cannot stay here anymore and she has to go. Before she left, she drew me some of my favourite disney characters on it. And till this day i remember how much i want to draw.
She was a layman, like you and me. Yet she could draw like any disney artist and it was pretty good too. I can still remember even though that drawing is no longer within my grasp. And so i thought to myself, i want to draw like that too someday, and i always thought to myself, what i can do, is what most layman can do.
and i admit i am a layman myself and today i am in this field, i can't think of any reason why i am any better than the rest of my classmates...sometimes i keep telling myself... is this the right thing to do? Am i making the right decisions??? am i doing what i like? is doing what i like will bring me to where i belong?
It matters to me what i become in the future... i used to dream big... i wish to be successful, wish to be useful to my family, as long as i become part of the middle class or higher i am happy... but am i? sometimes i can be pretty lost ... in fact i am at the moment... i am doubting i am contributing much to the project...ah~
so emo the post... but i don't feel emo at all... ah~~~~~~~~~~~~ ... am in confusion... suddenly felt like being hetalia... maru maru de...
man i am crapping... > <> < ... ouch ...well er... em.. > < sorry

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Marukaite Chikyuu by Daisuke Namikawa from Hetalia

Miscellenous Thoughts

2009-03-24T22:32:00.002+08:00

Its my 301st post... wow... time flies...XDXDXDXD i actually made 300 posts in like 4-5 years... Feb 11th 2005 was the day i first posted... woot~... and when i read back some of them.. it made me feel how childish i was...XDXDXDXD some crazy Gundam Seed fangirl i was XDXDXDXD spamming my blog bout it... but times has changed... i can actually feel myself grow in my blog... my blog... my diary XDXDXD some things have changed... while others remained... i realise that this blog of mine is my chart of memories...to remind me the things i have forgotten... both the good and the bad...
i remember i had to post twice about a topic that totally contradicts the situation i am in right now XD but i suppose time is the factor that has healed me and others... time was capable of teaching me a lot of things... it thought me patience, it thought me forgiveness and it also thought me how to forget XDXDXDXDXD however time also robbed me of my years... i didn't manage to do a lot of family bonding and then time allowed me to leave it as it is... i really wished i could but i couldn't ... not anymore... time is truely of the essence...
despite all time thought me to control my temper XD... my temper was not the best of genes i have inherrited...i kind of get angry at small and tiny things... things that i feel responsible off... no matter how great or how minor the matter... i get a little frustrated over it... to be honest i was a bit angry at my member for not telling me her problems... and i was a bit angry cause i feel that sometimes... people just forgets bout their responsiblity... like 4 years ago... it justs pissed me off that time... but this time... i'll close both my eyes... i decided that if its something i don't commit that much... the less frustrated i will be... and it kind of work... the less i get myself involve... the better... i mean why should i do it for grades... i do things for commitment... if the others aren't committed ... why should i... XD i mean i learnt my lesson ... why should i repeat the same mistake twice...
however... when i got home... recieving one miss call and that was more than enough for me XD knowing that he came home early safe and sound... i am relieved... -..- so much for my post 2 years ago...during december... XDXDXD seems like something else took priority here.... XD THAT IS after my final project ... XDXDXD
aside that i seem to miss my other friend... kaede... she is genki somewhere out there i believe... well we'll meet up again at purple cane next chinese new year anyway... =..= kind of far FAR away... aiks nevermind that
i think i should resume doing some bloordy report...=..=lll if its wrong... i bloody well don't care...
and then resume with some work of my own... XD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Futatabi by Ayaka Hirahara from Spirited Away

What Lies Ahead?

2009-03-18T22:49:00.003+08:00

Often or not ... we think about this... and i can't help myself from thinking about it... by mid of this year i am graduating... HOPEFULLY... and i will be out of the comfort zone... and it feels kind of scary of how little my options are... first of all there's further studies... i'd love to... but what am i going to study? where am i going to study and how am i going to find all that money to accomodate and pay the fee? you know its ridiculous when i heard my sister told me things that people do that totally pisses us off... imagine this... you have a chance to study... you have the loan... everything is fine and dandy until... you realise that you used up all the money in the bank and couldn't afford to pay the remaining fee... cause you spend it on a holiday... can you actually believe there are imbecils out there doing things like this... come on... spending your tuition fee money on a holiday... how stupid can one get? and its not only one person... but a group of people did it and they couldn't graduate cause they didn't pay the tuition fee.., i don't know what their brains are made of... cow dung i suppose...
i mean... its not like you don't have the chance... but you practically treated it like disposable paper... gosh can you imagine what it might mean to others who didn't have the chance to do so? its a disgrace to even call them intellectuals whose been to overseas and got nothing...
and here when chances come by... i find myself pretty silly as well... i suppose i might hand in this application form... the monbugakusho... a government loan from japan... to study there from scratch... that would be like another 4 years... and once again into the comfort zone... but somehow... i got no idea what to do there... there's two paper to take... but kaede took it once...and said it was super tough =..=lll i won't take that lightly though...
cause i have totally return all those knowledge i gain from school to them... ouch... > <> <> < am a bit happy cause we are starting with the 2nd stage of the animatics... but the first stage has yet to be completed... well i will let them animate under teh o's lead... realised i am not much of an animator... but more of a conceptual person...o.O am i? but hell yea i love conceptual environments...XDXDXD ah my dad came in just to say.. "What a lousy name card you made..."... ouch i just got stabbed real bad... jeez... i think i need more of this to improve myself... criticism is correction..........criticism is a better way to improve... but along the way... =..=lll yea a few stabs here and there XDXD i think that is all for now... need to resume work...

~ more posts... just had to blog this out.... > <
individuality... i don't think its something i discovered just of late... but somehow... i have been too blend... somehow this name card exercise thingy is quite interesting... the moment my mom saw the first set i made she went like... please reprint it ... O.O yea... she hated it cause its too small ... then she showed my dad and my dad went like ... huh... what kind of artist are you... o.O walao wei~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ yea i didn't really properly designed it with all my heart... you caught me red handed... and now... i am redoing it and i realize a lot of things... why am i concealing my 'kawaii' side? why am i trying to tell people i am someone i am not? why can't i be myself... ? and i realised it with this assignment... and realise that i am trying to act cool when i am not... o.0 and i thought to myself... yea...why am i concealing myself... it would be too dramatic if i were to say i live a lie... but yea all i wanted was to blend... blend into the crowd... but in this industry... to blend is to die...as in not survive in this industry... so i suppose...but of course... there is a certain level to blend or not... well time to choose...
if i want to blend... i want to blend in with the best... XDXDXD ambitious... yosh... kind of feeling a whole lot better...XDXDXDXD
and i just realised... THERE IS SUCH THING AS A BODY BUTTER.... o.O damn you beauty products... why do you have to create body butter when you already have lotion.... AREN'T THEY THE SAME????????????????????????? it sucks when your sis uses it and reeks and stench ... no i mean aromatise the surrounding... and it is worst when she's sleeping on MY bed... TAT

~ja
~Shinchi~
BGM : Futatabi by Ayaka Hirahara

Of all lecturers...

2009-03-14T22:17:00.003+08:00

When we first saw the list... we went like... what the heck is Colonel Sanders teaching 3d for... talking bout rise from the dead XDXDXD am so bad... bad mouthing my lecturer in my blog... XDXDXD but he ended his class today pretty well prepared... so i am quite thankful for all the knowledge he has given us and all the tips and tricks here and there.. but i wished he'd speak up and face us XDXDXD yea other than that i think he's pretty ok...but he has been a lecturer for quite some time... so he should know how to ... =..=lll and i ate kfc on the last day of his class
anyway... remember i mentioned bout a lecturer who is a sexist... =..=lll kind of met him two weeks in a row... and seems to remember me well...=..= probably not my name... but the face... or probably the fact that am the only female leader amongst all the group of male leaders... well had nice chat with him while walking at the alley...normal things like how's the project and all XDXDXDXD told him we were slow the first time... second time told him is fine and all...XDXDXD well now that i am not in his class ... seems to be easier to talk to XDXDXD
Wow look at how time fly pass.. and i am in my third year... graduating soon...
well that is not what i want to say but
XDXDXD just want to record down... its been a month XDXDXD since oh well...
since teh o made valentine chocolates that time... i felt like making some as well...=..= shit i am making chocolates... and i am making chocolates... @$#@#$!#$@#$#@$!@#$@#$@#$@$!#@ sometimes i wonder what has my mind been thinking lately... head desks... XDXDXDXDXD
but it was fun making them... melting it was fun but rolling them made my hand all...er ...lickable... XP yea was licking my palm every 5 pieces i made...=..=lll
anyway i wouldn't expect much from a first try... =..=lll and somehow it tasted different today when i ate them... wasn't as good as they were yesterday... =..=lll mum told me to add butter and egg... but... i think i will try something else next time... =..=lll XDXDXD gosh... me making chocolates would probably poke the eyes out of hon XDXDXDXD he'll go like... this is bad and this is not the way XDXDXD well he's the master chef among us anyway XDXDXDXD oh well...
March 14 just marks a lot ... end of class for one... dad's birthday... st. white's valentines... and XDXD our one month anniversary... XDXDXD
ok enough bout that... aikido is getting fun...XD my new sensei seems to be quite attentive.. well i am the super blur of the three anyway XDXDXD somehow quite friendly from last time...XDXDXD she looked a bit fierce last time...so was pretty afraid but then XDXDXD once we get to know her... she was like a tiger at first and now more like a cat...XDXDXD X3 X3X3X3

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Jupiter by Ayaka Hirarhara

Roti Jala

2009-03-09T15:10:00.001+08:00

This post is for you hana~!!!!
[IMG]http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y152/boo_licious/ramadanbazaarbsar_5.jpg[/IMG]
this is roti jala... and oh well mamak food... i have tried this before but its not exactly my favourite but since you said you have not seen it before... here is the picture... there are other types also but that you research yourself la...
am quite busy at the moment... > < blog some more next time...

In Awe With Passion~!!!!

2009-03-06T21:36:00.003+08:00

Gosh ... just when my day started with a bento lunch with teh o...it just went awesomely cool...
it is like attending this lecture but it was not like a lecture more like a sharing... wait it is a sharing... XDXDXD
so we got the director of passion republic to share with us their 3rd in house project which was SUPERB...
but still felt a little too much slow mo... but that is not the case in point...
it started off with him asking why we are in this major... trying to get to know us and all... very friendly guy... XD
and in the car teh o thinks he is bald and old but what do you know... he's just 27 XDXDXDXD... totally tickled me off when he told us he's got a bald spot XDXDXDXDXDXD
then after that... he started showing us his company's works... started off with tv commercials and all... but when it came to their in house projects... it was soooooooooooooooooooooo cool... with only a group of thirteen...they manage to do something so cool in 5 months... 2 months for pre pro.. and 3 months for production... (i didn't realise it at first by just watching the trailer and i think my line was bad and couldn't support i frames) and it turned out awesome... and the most awesome thing i realised is that it was based on poker cards... the theme was the same as what i came out for my batch's graduation campaign...XDXDXDXDXDXD and i was like jaws opened when i saw the concept art... just blew my mind away.. after the talk i kind of held him back for a while just to have a few more looks at the concept art... can't really remember what he asked or said... i don't think i even remembered what i said... XDXDXDXD it was beautiful... in fact i added the artist on da already but of course these kind of things cannot be posted as an individual work... but when i went back to the site ... the iframe is finally working and i am in awe again... and damn... i have yet to touch the final project today... > < shit been slacking off... it was and inspiring afternoon... and what he said was quite true... we students need a goal to drive us
without the goal... we slack and without an aim... it seems pointless to pursue further...
yea i think its about time i seriously think of what i want... even mo has big dreams that pushed him to the person and the cg artist he is today XDXDXD and i dunno if i can help him be a part of it... > <
for the moment... i love backgrounds... with skies XD well i love the way makoto shinkai does their backgrounds...and i liked tekkonkin streets' black and white drawings as well... pity them the size of their artwork is no bigger than an animation paper...XDXDXD sometimes they conbine pieces here and there...XDXDXDXD it becomes a huge inspiration to see doodles and sketches of progress how the whole thing came to be... it was awesooooooooooooooooooooooooooooome.... i just didn't realise it until today when he shared with us how it was done... somehow i didn't get that awesomeness feeling when i saw saladin..o.0 but for this one.... it is not the detailed realistic that matters... but the whole concept of their design... i mean if i want to compare between both saladin and arx avari... i'd say both has their own strength and weaknesses... depending on the time they were made cause saladin was like a few years back and arx avari was like done this year... but it was equally good...
i don't even know where to begin with the both of them... but i know arx avari sure has given me a more impact on how it was made than saladin...=..= i slept through... sorry ... maybe because it was in the morning and i slept late the night/morning before... =..=lll i shouldn't be comparing both of them... yea... -..-lll they are both good in their respective aspects XDXDXDXD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Closer by Inoue Joe from Naruto
and the link to the site
http://www.passionrepublic.com/html/arx_avari.html
enjoy

Italy+Japanese x Germany!!!!!

2009-03-02T00:06:00.005+08:00

Tribute to Zboz ~!!!!!!

It was a small gathering from our class to you XDXDXD
jeez... this sounded like you are going somewhere far far away... XDXDXDXD
but you will still be missed > < i know mO will feel that way
I woke up at 9 actually but went back to bed till 10 ish ... didn't feel like doing work so i painted instead...then again i never really finish anything =..=llll i hope to finish some soon... including my final project ...@$!$@#%#$%@#$%@#$%@#$%@#$%@#$%@#$@#$%@$%#$%
anyway... we were suppose to meet up at 2 ish but somehow the driving around and jamming here and there made us rather late for an hour or so =..=lll but atleast i didn't get lost to mO's place XD yea
and then off to get the guest of honour~... the super busy zboz... so much plans on a sunday~ sigh
nevermind... went and get him and then off to 1u for pasta zanmai~...
i can hear "ITALY" screaming " PASTA~~~~~~~~~!!!!" XDXDXDXD
it was good and expensive...=..=lll well it was my second time there so ... yea it is pricy... but worth for an occasion as such XDXDXD
we had a good time... nothing much in between... just eating and chatting and pictures taking...
kinda lost my interest in photography.. kinda became my sister's thing
and not more than 2 hours we left and the guest of honour became our driver for the afternoon
XDXDXDXDXDXD
after that...XDXDXD we waited for teh o's return and off to sue's place to wait for the guys for part 2 of partying...
when the guys came we went circling around for the german restaurant....and got lost...=..=lll
XDXDXDXD but the pork knuckles was good... but not the sausage... weiner aint my taste...too salty...
but it was all good...
thanks guys XDXDXD and happy birthday Hon-key...XDXDXD
It was suppose to be your day XDXDXD
big 22... XDXDXD
i got nothing much to say for the moment... but it was an enjoyable day altogether...
we had lovely company and awesome food XDXDXD
go German Pork Knuckles XDXDXD
it was delicious... though it reminded me of Jarold's hand...
> <
well since we over spent today ...
BENTO MONTH

~ja
~Shinichi
BGM : on the phone with Skype...XDXDXD

The Line is BACK!!!!!

2009-03-01T00:42:00.002+08:00

XDXDXD finally my line is back~~~~~~~~~~~ Yatta~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!
the line is back ... finally but it wasn't as long as last time XDXDXD it was only a month compared to a year or two XDXDXDXD so its nothing... sorry i made you call every night ... =..=lll feeling guilty ... especially your telephone bil... and thanks for coming over to fix some stuff XDXDXDXDXD i know my technical skills are below ground zero XDXDXDXD and i suck at softwares... XDXDXD
well it was an exciting month of feb... @.@ so much excitement and all... it is a bit hard for me to grasp at times but it felt exciting ... but there are times where things can go a bit out of hand... =..= need to control~
so far so good i hope > < need to lay out some policies straight ... em XD
well our project... is slow~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ now only finish texturing and texture shading
XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD
can die liao... > <.... =...=llllllllllllllllllllll
er nothing much to update... except slow progress in my project... shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.... need to buck up already~
i think i will have more to blog about tomorrow~... so
till tomorrow then... just want to say something XDXDXD

~ja
~Shinchi~
BGM : Last Words You Said by Sarah Brightman and Richard Marx

> < Valentines Day~!!!

2009-02-20T13:36:00.003+08:00

Feb 14th 2009

It was 4 years since I last dated anyone and to me that was so minor compared to what I experienced today. It was truly magical. It was a bit hard to imagine myself to be liked by someone that much. I felt like it was the first time someone actually like me. I mean I don’t dress like other girls, I don’t behave much like a girl and at some point I even had gender confusion. I was so dense to even realize I was liked.
I kept telling myself I might be wrong and there are plenty of guys out there who just want to fling and flirt around. Somehow it will always be part of my mind, I cannot shake it off. I am scared to like for I fear what is to come. I fear myself for being delusional.
To be honest I never had thought of dating anyone at all. I wasn’t looking for anyone. In fact I think I was tired. Tired of answering to people why I don’t find myself a nice guy and all. Tired of jumping from one group to another, tired of being alone. It isn’t the search that matters to me it was the result. If the result of the search was futile, I don’t think I want to spend too much time of my life finding for one. So I let fate decide. Going with the flow was what I did.
And there he was, I never imagined of dating him. Perhaps he wasn’t in the scope, perhaps he has a girlfriend. That was what I have thought for a guy like him, it was unlikely he was single. But he was. Call me old fashion but it never did occur to me that he would like me and it never occurred to me that I will feel the same. At the beginning I thought he was just playing “family” but it somehow diverted to a more immense feeling. I wasn’t so sure what to do. I wasn’t sure if I am ready to accept him or not.
But when I looked at him, I want to smile. When I hear him talk I want to laugh and when I am next to him I want to be cuddled and I want to hug him in return. When I am with him I feel at tranquil and ease despite how nervous he was. He was so warm and melted the chains of ice I bind myself with.
But today made a difference. It wasn’t him that I gave a chance, I think I gave myself a chance, a chance to change, a chance to be liked and be loved and to return it with all my heart.
I still haven’t told my parents yet though > <. It is a bit hard for me to say to a dad who has kept brainwashing me not to get a boyfriend and not be delusional throughout the last 18 years of my life I think. And somehow it gradually stopped. I think I will just let my dad know on his own. My mum asked who gave me those flowers. I couldn’t answer her.
Thank you for the purple roses you sent me it was my first valentine bouquet from someone who really likes me. When you explained to me the meaning I wasn’t too sure of myself. I looked it up and there it was my answer was you. This is starting to sound so embarrassing but I would like to record this as part of my life. A step I took out of my comfort zone. I am grateful for you to be by my side, I am grateful for you being there for me to like and be loved in return. I hope this relationship works out as long as possible.

~ja
~Shixye~
BGM : The Voice~Jupiter~ by Ayaka Hirahara

Emotional Drive~!!

2009-02-20T13:33:00.002+08:00

Feb 11th 2009
Sometimes it makes me wonder, what life really mean to us. Is it something obtainable or something given so we can treasure it? I am not too sure myself. I have been attending one funeral too many. Many in which I did not cry for. Such as my own grandmother’s funeral, which I cannot shed a single tear. Yet the next day I went back to school to announce my absence on the following day.
I believe I would have cried, really cried if I had a stronger bond between the deceased and me. But even to my dearest uncle’s death, I did not cry for. I stood strong, or was I mistaken; I believe I was, weak. A weakling, who dare not cry, who dare not show affection. I couldn’t cry.
Almost every year of my high school life, I attended at least one or two funerals. I believe the most devastating one was the death of a cousin’s whole family. First the dad, then the daughter and finally the mother. It was never a pretty sight. Somehow I feel for the mother. When both my closest lovers died, my desire to go with them is stronger than it is to stay here alone. And today I watched a movie with the same circumstances. It was really touching to me but life was never about a fairy tale. And so I hope the three of them are living well up there. Watching over dear Anthony, I pray hope so.
Today marked the day, the reunion with heaven for my cousin’s mother in law. Despite how much I dislike my cousin’s wife, I cannot help but feel for her. When I watched my mother cry, I couldn’t help imagining her cry as well.
To me the most horrible thing is that I could not shed a tear. I believe that is my greatest regret. Somehow our bond wasn’t strong enough, I am sorry.
Such is the emotional drive. At times I wish I had more and at times I wish I had none.

Feb 18th 2009
I felt awfully selfish. Selfish because I am showered with happiness while others weeping in sorrow. Sorry Teh O I want you to know that I am sorry I was so dense. In fact I was too dense. I am even more dense about the things about me. 0.o
But I felt really bad that night, cause I couldn’t lend you my shoulder, I couldn’t be by your side and I wasn’t there to listen. I am so sorry.
Somehow or rather I managed to ask about.
Well at least things turned and all I want is happiness to myself and those around me. I want all my friends to be happy and never at all I want friends in the group to divide.

Feb 19th 2009
Things turned a little brighter. He got most of his projects done and completed XDXDXDXD YEAH~!!! I believe he is taking more new projects XD and my friends are slightly happier now. Only majority of them. But I hope we all move on as we go. Go with the flow~~~~~~~~~~
Today was rather enjoyable. I hope he didn’t mind the cold dishes Oh well I ate them too…XDXDXDXD
And damn my project is slow… Cottage Pictures must add more oil liaoif not we can all bury our souls within the pc’s in the college….XDXDXD

am posting this at college cause my dad didn't pay the bils AGAIN~!!!!
somehow got used to it... but i can't help it but want to blog... so i typed at home and brought it here to be posted... till then~ XDXDXD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Sugarless Girl by Capsule
~ pray my dad pay the bils soon ~

Fireworks~!!!

2009-02-08T00:29:00.003+08:00

yea saw fireworks today and they were so close and so beautiful...XDXDXD
er we watched "Inkheart" was an ok movie XDXDXD but i had higher expectations

it was a very pleasant evening indeed... but my day started off a bit rough cause the night before i kind of debated with my sis... > <> < XDXDXDXD but i managed it somehow XDXDXD
it just needs some time to refresh... once a week is bound to be slow but i will try my best somehow XDXDXD after all... i just want to work out a little... gym is a bit expensive and i don't want muscles... i just want to get away from the pc and do something else for a little while XDXDXD... but it was nice training XDXDXD
and so after that i went to teh o's place to bath before the dinner and the movie...
XDXDXD sorry we made ah pah wait for us at pjs9 XDXDXD we had to drop tokiya to get his car and jam at the u turn ... > <> < but teh o did XDXDXD
then all of us ate at zanmai... AGAIN...XDXDXDXD we just love that place don't we ....XDXDXD and we met with ashley and yit bo and ngai charm... > < well small place sunway... met with a lot with people...XDXDXD
it was a bit sad to sit in 2 different tables.. > < but we need it quick so no choice...
then to the cinema people XDXDXD ... it was... yipiyaya (kasan's friend), kasan, kelvin, hana, teh o , ah pah and i
and we sat at "afro" ( F Row ) gosh all the cold jokes XDXDXDXDXD and the most memoriable dialogue i remembered from Ink heart was... " I don't want to go back into my stinkin' book" XDXDXDXD by Farid the character from Arabian Nights... I guess... and the library was awesome... i'd really like to sit by the window and read or paint or just enjoy a lazy afternoon ...XDXDXD but i figured out it would be nice to have someone to read to or to enjoy with XDXDXD simple fantasies XDXDXD
and after the movie... we walked out and saw fire works... it was so close... so beautiful... wished i could shout out loud too XDXDXDXD it was just so beautiful... that no 3d can compare XDXDXD not to say they can't produce the same effect but ... it is nicer to see the real thing XDXDXDXDXD
kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa > <> < i wished they continued longer but as we are all cinderellas... we need to be back by midnight... so when it stopped... we left...
oh and did i mention... teh o drove me in her dad's car... that was exciting... XDXDXDXD
i finally realise how rough i drive now XDXDXXD yea i am a rough driver and i don't like to slow down so much at bumpers XDXDXD and i go through port holes XDXDXD kept thinking my car is a jeep XDXDXD
but yea... compared to the car teh o drove... mine is not so comfortable XDXD its meant for me to thrash around XDXDXD but i love my car better... it has more power to drive... it is faster XDXDXD and it is a wonderful car despite how it looks like XDXDXD just need to fix the dent my dad made and the scraped paint i did when i banged into hana's gate > <
anyway today is a bright new day... though i wished yesterday didn't end so fast... > <

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Hello Again Jojo by Ayaka Hirahara.... i am hooked at this song XDXDXD

Steam~~~~~~~ boat

2009-02-04T00:17:00.003+08:00

Some pics as promised... the steamboat i ate a yesterday
Waiting for a call ezel...?

Teh o's oOOOoOOOOOOOOOOOOoooo

pot filled with smileys ... how can you eat them??????????
bloody star smiley~

ew~~~~~~~~~~~ what is this? and ...

kaede ate it... > <>

all that was left~... who put the manju into the pot?????? o.O

kept thinking i used to have that hairstyle once... but just one or two strand... with a typical japanese girl haircut... > <

House to House

2009-02-03T00:14:00.003+08:00

"What is your bird? Mine is a humpming bird" said aniki at May Lynn's house...we were like stunned a while and then started laughing... XDXDXDXD i know when i told it to kaede it sounded lame but yea that was what happened when i went house to house visiting my old high school friends...XDXDXDXDXD
"How come only one girl????!" was another remark most of the aunties made when we first stepped into their houses
i was like... what???????????????????? and then she asked if i were any of their girlfriend... of course not!
well i used to but no longer XDXDXDXD anyway i was like... the only girl in the group ...XDXDXD as usual the guys came over and since hon's car wasnt big enough so i drove...XD and the first stop was cheng hsiang's place... then to may lynn's then to kagen's then to aniki's...XD after that was em home lo... everyone wanted to eat with their family... INCLUDING ME!!!! i wanted to eat at home... and when i reached home...NO ONE WAS THERE... gosh... i called the house phone no one answered... honned... no one open the door... then i called my mum... both my parents were on their way to gombak... #$@!%$@#$%@$$#%@$%@#$% they could have atleast sms-ed me that they were out.... and so i was stuck outside of my own house for 30 minutes... calling sue and teh o ... teh o dota... sue out with family... mou iiyadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i felt so outcast.... lucky thing my aunt came home from dinner when i went there and she made maggi mee for me...T^T
luckily after that sue came over and find me for a drink... if not i would still be throwing tantrums ....
she showed me this awesome view at Desa Parkcity ... it was so quiet and so nice... the view of the whole city... was at our feet..XDXDXD it was nice and it is memoriable... XDXDXD everything just went nice until... the next morning she smsed me with some not so good news...=..=lll sigh~
i feel that i am not being a good enough friend for her > <> < i wish i could have been there for her... but plans had been made and i was eating steamboat with kaede just now... as for pictures... sorry man... i didn't bring my camera.. maybe next time when juin give me the pictures...XDXDXD but for now this is still an all words post
its bombarding fireworks here...

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Siciliana by Ayaka Hirahara

Crazy Events

2009-01-28T20:29:00.003+08:00

Things have been so crazy these days
this has got to be the most eventful chinese new year ever~... not from the relatives aspect...
but rather a week packed of mini dramas
well it was on the second day that ... i had the usual lunch chinese new year at my aunt's place... and so we ate... and after that i was supposed to go out with sue... so we went out... and when i came back the first thing my mom said to me was... "I'm going to Ipoh / Cameron with your aunt and cousins...!!~" and i was like when????????????
Tomorrow morning......... and she ciaoed... leaving my dad and my sis and i behind... o.0
and it was sayonara mummy... welcome kitchen of hell~...
the next morning i went out with sue which is actually this morning...
i was trying to sleep off my temperature... > < but it wont go away so who cares... so we went to klcc and had lunch and kinokuniya... and the next thing we know... we are heading back..XD nah we were tired so we drove back and when she was parking at my area... her tyres actually went into the longkang...o.0 yea~ so i had to call my dad to help... and it was raining somemore.. damn epic XDXDXDXDXD so the three of us were like there trying to lift the car up... sue and i was like trying to get the car jack out but it won't budge... so my dad has to find his own jack and help lift the car... it wasnt long.. was bout an hour later we got it up and out of the drain XD well that was a mini major minor incident... no cars or humans were scratched... XDXDXDXD just got wet XDXDXD well alls well ends well ... XD after leeching sue went home... and so did i... i was home afterall..XD XDXDXD ~ja ~Shinichi~ BGM : Nocturne by Ayaka Hirahara

~PS ... my sis did the cooking ... she made me write this~!! > <

Crazy Chinese New Year

2009-01-26T13:43:00.002+08:00

This has been the craziest chinese new year ever~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
and when i mean craziest... the craziest of events happened...
a lot happened between the nights before and the night of cny.. i mean today IS the first day... so of course i am writing bout things that has happened... but there are things i can't mention as well...
but hey let me summarize my 1 hour chinese new year
ok i woke up at 8.30 bath and eat that would be about 9 ish and when the whole family is ready its 10
so let's start

10.00 - get into the car and start speeding wooooooooooooooooo
10.15 - arrived at grandparent's place
10.45 - finish eating and collecting tax
11.00 - reach home

and the night before ... i couldn't sleep at all... or rather when i actually fell asleep my mum woke me up liao
... yea it was a crazy chinese new year and i thank god for my mum in believing some sort of timing that we have to be back by 11...
sorry guys no pictures... just too tired to even think properly... lack of sleep does that to me
well i think hunger does that to me too...XD
i think i will have something in a while... no appetite this morning ... getting hungry now..
think i will go grab some stuff
till then

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Cosmos by Hirahara Ayaka

Throat Remedies

2009-01-23T23:45:00.002+08:00

i want to kill ah pah in law for making me scream when i am having a sore throat...
YOU OWE ME ICE CREAM AND PARFAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn...
now i am going to loose my voice for sure...
$#%@$%@$#%@#$%$#^@$^$%@#$%@#$^@%@$%@#$
was playing dumb for a day so i can recover faster... now that ah pah in law made me scream ... i don't think it will recover before cny.... ARGH
damn ...................

shit that made me no mood to type anymore...

anyway ... CNY is near... not that it is going to be any different from any other days...
yesterday while waiting for ah pah to finish bathing i doodled... its in my da so you can see the outcome...
kind of messed up the hair XDXDXD

erm nothing much though.. just want to wish everyone to drive safely this festive season
don't drink and drive... make sure you bath and drive...don't stink the passengers in the car...
and don't eat and drive XDXDXDXDXD

ok that is it...
happy holidays ~

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : The Voice by Hirahara Ayaka

Comfort Food

2009-01-21T23:00:00.002+08:00

Lately i have been depending a lot on comfort food... that is bad
as we speak i am eating a bar of chocolate... i have been a bad girl but i do brush up before bed
... i suppose pressure comes along the package of responsibilities .. sigh
well i have to endure... FIGHTO~!!! graduation campaign is spamming my email... thank god i didn't give them my gmail one... wait i gave it to the lecturer... =..=llll
anyway... am waiting for a chance... a chance to voice out~
gosh this game is nice but ... needs lots of hints here and there and once the working pattern is there you can figure it out .... it is for people with a LOT of free time
http://riddle.p4x.ch/
XDXDXD was fun.. but a bit of a headache also XDXDXD
er nothing much today... think i kind of annoyed some people yesterday... i should stop behaving like a girl and become more man... =..= well not like it will happen la...
got work to do.. we are slow but we are trying our best
> < go Cottage Pictures~!!!

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Gradation by Ayaka Hirahara

Stranded

2009-01-19T23:29:00.003+08:00

i was sleep driving on the way home ...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
er yea bad habit ... was sleepy cause the jam was like one hour...
and then when i got home... i couldn't go in...
needless to say ... i was without my own house key... so i went to my aunt's place for dinner and waited for the key holders to return... my sis and my dad...and sis came home without properly calling me...
#$!#$%@#$^@%#$@$%#%@#$%@#$%@#$%@#$@#$@!%$#%^46
as if i have not enough... should have just bang my car to totally wake myself up...

and last saturday... after training i went to kaimo... thanks for letting me invade your room...
while waited for ah pah in law for dinner... and then we had sushi.......again
well i dunno what to say much... in between we met up with his friend... kid chan and i ended up sending her home... again... not that i am unwilling but ... its kind of weird without teh o around cause i ain't that close to her...=..=llll after that nothing much i suppose... i said... SUPPOSE

then sue had to appear behind my car... dragged me out for ice shave ... and i went babbling away in her car... and in her car she had her friend there as well... and yes she has gone mad... like i haven't had enough on my own
and her craziness has infected me as well cause the next day I WENT AND BAKED COOKIES and crazily drove teh o down so we can make it together... people DO jaw drop

yea ... was there at sue's house to make cookies... was so good i ate them fresh from the oven and there aren't much left XDXDXD well funny things did happen then... like teh o ... she liked buttering up the trays she ended up buttering the butter cover too XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD and then we played around... and then at 12 we went for dinner XD awesome aint it... all shops are CLOSED cept those clubbing type of restaurants... lucky thing gasoline was still open so that was where ah pah in law belanja again... hey that was for waiting for you on sunday... still owe me one for waiting for you on saturday XDXDXDXD

ah time flies

its already chinese new year... the most boring occasion ever...=.........=lll i hate cleaning my room
aint buying new clothes and aint breaking my policies XDXDXD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Everyday by Ayaka Hirahara

Graduation Campaign

2009-01-14T22:22:00.002+08:00

Election day~
"congrats to the board... of people who are bored XDXDXD"
XDXDXD that is what the lecturer said anyway...
didn't really want to be involved much... guess... sigh -..-ll
well i will help as much as i can but my priority goes to my final project...
Cottage Pictures,... I am by your side... XDXDXDXD
but not like they need me that much anyway ..=..=lll
ah~ XDXDXDXD i should ganbateh... this is the most crucial moment...
succeed or DIE....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
modeling and texturing must be nice
> < cottage pictures ganbateh !!!!!!
nothing much to post today
cleared the virus in my thumbdrives but not my hard disc T..........T
ah~ and i got Kaspersky today... sounded like kasan... and during lunch i went to McD to say hi... to kasan and ah pah but it was soooooooooo awkward that we came in and there was the bunch of pros and we were like the jinjang gang from the north XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD and we left after i got my ice cream XD
i just washed my car and it rained today... =..=lll
ah life... is ... fair?

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Hitori Ja Nai Kara by UVERWorld

Car Wash

2009-01-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

The moment i got home... I WASHED MY CAR
cause someone just puked blood all over it...

FOR REAL

....
well for real when it was oil instead of blood
more like sprinkled
well that is what you get for parking behind a restaurant... -A-
and oh well so i washed my car the moment i arrive home

and then my hard disc got virus
DAMN YOU ???????????????????????????????????????????????? QUESTION MARKS
damn... DAMN ... although they don't do anything but they are annoying
DAMN ANNOYING!!!! WHAT IS THE SCHOOL DOING ....argh~

ok chill chill
added a new family member to my 'family tree'
ah pah - in law ... Hana
ah pah ... Ho Yi
mam ... Hooi Ling
XDXDXDXD

XDXDXD today's class lecturer was super tall... o.0
and he shared his experience with us and he is looks intimidating with that height alone =A=
but what he shared was awesome and it was eye opening
XDXDXD then =A= i got bully by mama... and kuanwin... ah~...
don't mention... the whole class was like...why i don't wear skirts or dresses...
you see... skirt... has an open bottom... it floats and it flips.... most annoying of all is the bare feeling in between my legs... please ashley not my crotch =A=lll
felt so violated ...T..T

XDXDXD anyway today was a fun and non productive day thanks to the bloody virus
need to do the digital layout soon
SOON

XDXDD ok la
~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Garnet by Miyano Mamoru

Family

2009-01-12T14:28:00.002+08:00

I chat with ah pah till about 4.30am XDXXDXDXD i know i am naughty XDXDXD
but amongst the topic we chat about was about family... ah pah told me about how much he loved his dad and his brother... made me feel jealous a bit... XDXDXD cause i can't feel the same way...
i know a lot of people think i only have one sister ... that is because all they see is her in the house... along with my parents of course... its not because my brothers are older and they moved out... but we never stayed in the same house for more than a week ... so far i think for the past 20 years of my life ... we never even talked more than a sentence... o.0 well such is life where gender is all that matters to them... not like i will be depending them in the future anyhow...
just i felt sad for them...cause my parents stayed here with me and my sis... while the both of them stayed at my grandparent's house ... and its not like my family is some sort of rich family ... which makes me more curious why it ended up like this... not like my family is loaded with money that we have to live like this... it makes me jealous when other people talked nice things about their brothers... and its not like i don't have brothers its more like i never got to know them at all... it made talking to strangers so much easier than it is talking to them...
was sniffling in front of the pc when ah pah told me how nice his brothers are and how nice his dad was...
its so weird my friends called my dad funny...but i believe one day i will leave this house and get one of my own...
i always dreamt of getting a designers' apartment with a lovely view over the city... and the house empty...o.0
XDXDXDXD emo talk ... sigh never mind la...not like it should matter ... now that one of my brother has gone to singapore... doesn't feel any different at all... sad ain't it... can't feel a thing... =..=lll
i have my sis and that is all that matters for this moment... i'll just take it as if i never had brothers at all...XDXDXD makes my life easier XDXDXDXD
though felt like crying... XDXDXD but i must not ... XDXDXDXD FIGHTOOOOOOOOO
XDXDXDXD ok la
got final project to do... should pre-occupy myself with that XDXDXDXD
that is the only thing i must have in my mind now XDXDXDXD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Gloomy Sunday by Sarah Brightman... FYI - this song made a lot of people suicide until it was banned ... this is just the remix version ... but with the same title

Teapots~!!!

2009-01-06T23:07:00.003+08:00

I've been wondering myself... what is with teapots
i mean... look at me... i am hanging out with teh o~ ... reminds me of teapot...
and what about maya and 3dsmax... THEY HAVE DEFAULT TEAPOTS... i modelled a teapot last term
i am looking at a teapot right now... well not a teapot but close enough to a teapot... and my sister is talking about a teapot... and she is said i am publicising about her life...

its the first class of the term... teapots...
oh well that was yesterday

today~
graduation campaign.. =..= er~ so fast graduating liao...
where did my youth go~~~~~~~

missed hanging out with sharon and karl... when la are they going to tie the knot... but if i were them also i won't tie it here... go overseas then only tie... malaysia is a strict country when it comes to islam XDXDXDXD
nothing much to say at the moment... pray i got nothing much to do with any sort of community...
drama is the last thing i need in my life...
no wonder its sooooooooo dull XDXDXDXD
its bliss

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Antoinette Blue by Kitade Nana from DGrayMan

Seatbelts

2009-01-02T21:38:00.002+08:00

Gosh Kye and Kagen ... you two sure know how to "buckle" up
the situation was... we were in yoong's car, i sat in front and kye kagen and bear sat behind...
and the conversation was... like this

Kagen: Eh new rule... gotta buckle up... new law~
Kye : Eh yalo ... yoong where is the belt?

Then both of them found it and tried to buckle

Kagen : Eh cannot go into the hole one
Kye : Wrong hole la this is my hole.. that one is your hole
Kagen : no la that is my hole and this is your hole
Kye : Ah there you go... eh cannot go in one... so hard to go in one
Kagen : OI wrong hole la~ aiyo this hole cannot fit...
Kye : Yea so hard to push in one ~

and i was infront there... laughing... I SHOULD HAVE GIVEN THEM THE CONDOM I HAD IN MY WALLET AT THAT TIME XDXDXDXDXD
regret i didn but since Kye and Kagen are going to sit in their car later... as in after dinner so i gave them mine at that time XDXDXD

well our meet started with movie of spirit... PLEASE...IF YOU DON'T LIKE SIN CITY NO POINT WATCHING
well i like it that it was stylize and all but... the dialogue is horrible... the direction was horrible... the jokes were damn lame... and the whole idea of him narrating like that... if it was comedy then its fine but the thing is it ISN'T so if you don't mind all that i have stated above... then sure ... watch the movie XDXDXD
my point of view may differ for individuals..XDXDXD i mean dc fans can ... throw popcorn or drinks or whatever... it is not a mainstream movie but you cannot say it is not commercial cause there are like damn HOT chicks in there is like gun fighting and all ... well i can say the best movie i have watched so far was Ip Man it was COOL
bolt ... well no offense... one too many

ok ok enough bout the movie... anyway i had fun guys... see you all at hon's dinner at his place on monday... XD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Found Me by Kawamura Yumi from Persona

Class Timetable for Jan 09

2009-01-02T11:35:00.003+08:00

This is the timetable for Jan 09 effective next week

Tuesday : 9 am to 2 pm - Advanced 3D Studio 2
Tuesday : 3 pm to 6 pm - Final Project Development 2
Lecturer : Hooi Ling

Wednesday : 10:30 am to 12:30 noon - Graduation Campaign

Saturday : 9:30 am to 2:30 pm - Advanced 3D sStudio 2

as for the venue of each class... i am not too sure but be sure to check out your results and get the proper timetable when you return to college... till then ... enjoy the last few days of your holidays...XD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Ichirin no Hana by High and Mighty Color from Bleach

chocolate parfait comes in LAYERS

2009-01-02T01:58:00.004+08:00

Parfait comes in layers LAYERS i tell you and Pick and Brew sure can suck your money up dry for that small block of chocolate with a few extravagant dressings.... IT AINT PARFAIT IF IT AINT GOT ICE CREAM AND CEREAL AND CHOCOLATE IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Met up with juin kaede and ezel... for a parfait ... for a parfait... and no where does it as classical as zanmai's
i purposely rip that parfait pic up from the net to show you what parfait looks like...
it comes in layers... it comes in a tall TALL glass and it comes with WHIP cream tooo
ezel... you sure don't know how to pick places...let juin or kaede do it the next time...
oh well not all his fault... we came out for parfait.. and we went to good ol zanmai for it

but it was fun... sushi was nice but small but nice
some quality time with them.. that i have been ignoring for ages
oh well term starting soon
i suppose i should stop slacking and start kicking my own ass... if only i could do that i wouldn be here
oh and bro came down from singapore...AGAIN
so sis have to invade my room

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Continued Stories by Hitomi from Code Geass R2

Pierrot cheers for the new year

2009-01-01T01:14:00.002+08:00

hmm its 2009... time for resolutions...
well this year's resolution is to make our short film the most colorful short film XDXDXD
yea~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
well personally my annual resolution is to ameliorate myself so i am able to be on par with the industry
well it will take some time so that will be a super long term resolution xDXDXDXD
and today i had bbq party with teh o and hana and their cf gang... kaede was there too and well the rest of the cf gang... why am i even there xDXDXDXD but it was quite fun but not as fun as we did at kasan's but that was the most exhausting one too... cause we wash the chicken peel off the fats and marinated that ourselves... and we finish everything which was a good thing XDXDXD but this time XDXDXD oh well... it was nice to eat cooked chicken then bbq-ed it again... if it was only not spicy it would be much much better XDXDXD but i prefer to bbq myself.. why am i complaining so much... > < but it was .. then again i think it is not really well plan so can consider one of the worst bbq party i've been too but because i didn't sweat much and didn really do much so i think it was one of the most relaxing bbq party ever....XDXDXDXDXdXDXD met a lot of people ... well ok ok la XDXD
hmm let's get back to the main topic...
let me review my whole year of 2008...
seriously can barely remember anything...everything was so vague XDXDXD
guess i'll pass on reviewing my year... just that i had a great birthday the cheapest one yet XDXDXD at a mamak stall and then i met the most people... been to cf after 3 or 4 years ... wow XDXDXD and made a complete fool of myself the other day which i refuse to mention XDXDXD and then the start of aikido training XDXDXD the first time i stayed at college and i did it twice XDXDXD might do more in 2009
oh well it was fun and well there are not so fun times like how much time i spent on telling people i'd like to be single... i rejected 2 guys in 1 month... er... not so good > < but they were online friends XDXDXD so .. XDXD anyway i made up with one of them so its fine XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXXD
and what else XD... milku daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
been drinking milk for nights consecutively XDD
ok la

happy new year everyone may good tidings come to you and your family

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Kimi ga Hikaru ni Kaete yuku by Kalafina

New Year, New Look

2008-12-31T13:43:00.003+08:00

hey ... finally after so long ... i finally customized my own blog layout... that header took bout 3 to 4 hours to do it but it was worth it XDXDXD but i feel like i can do more so i might add a few more new stuff before the year ends...XDXDXD today i am suppose to go for a bbq party... o.0

anyway the concept behind my header is a little pierrot hidding its' tear behind XDXDXD which suits the theme "Reminiscence of Tears" quite well... well at first i wanted to draw a little girl trapped in a tear but it proves to be a bit difficult to do the tear part so i redraw a pierrot XDXDXD which my inspiration came from my sis and a twin pierrot i recieved once from my babysitter aunt whom i love a lot and when you wind the key behind it, it will play a song XDXDXD i don't know what the song is called but it was a very nice one XDXDXD my sis's pierrot was with her but mine is still at my aunt's house... for things i treasure... i dread bringing it home with me... cause i never know how to care for it so i leave it in the better care of my aunt... i still treasure it till this day... just in a long distant ...
but its been a while since i've seen mine... probably when i visit my aunt again i will take it back...
and let it join the casts of my soft toys on my bed...XDXDXD
oh and those patterns i've used was found in the lab... i'd like to credit them properly but i can't really find the name of the owner > < anyway thanks for the lovely patterns XDXDXD
and i think that is it... i should resume to my final project XDXDXD which has been kept on hold for quite some time,... i think i need to talk with my members once more to ease the problem... miscommunication... i wish they can understand their tasks properly and i hope i have been clear to them ...
that is all for now XD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Say Goodbye and Good Day by Kokia

Am going nuts

2008-12-28T01:10:00.002+08:00

i think its' cause i cut my nails that is why i am blogging and am hyped to type and i think i am going crazy at the moment... argh..................$!$#%@%#$^$%&%^*&^*&^(*%&*$^#%^@$!#@
what do i wanna say... ah yes... i dunno
am just speaking out the randomness in my head right now cause ... yea it was lonely without teh o
LONELY~ sabishiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.... T.T ok am being random... ashley was sooooooooooo cold =..=
am i really that detestable... shit i should go back to my arrogant aura then...
ji~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
beware... for shin chan is here to make you feel smalllll... XDXDXDXDXD
like that is going to work... oh well yea ... roll...
am in need of attention that is all... my remedy ... now i shall curse myself for being an attention seeker
MUKYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
gyabooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
roll... then beaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam
ok i think i have been random enough... have i?
ok ok ok... chill

ahem

well back to normal i hope... just that i don't usually feel like this... am more of a sophisticated person... i hope...
well back to training... 3 weeks without hoei sensei was a bit of a bore... i should stop being the joker in the class...and resume my post as the gloomy faced student... XD well another 2 uncles joined us and his son all their names start with a h... so we got ha hi hu he ho... and a how... and we've got a yew...
so lets do some maths... how + yew = how ah yew...
lame joke but there are really people with those names... i tell excellent cold jokes don't i XDXDXDXD
and i think i should hit the sack
enough crap for a day... will see maya tomorrow

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : War is Over Now by Sarah Brightman... i wish my war will be over too...

Eternity is nothing more than a Cycle

2008-12-27T12:47:00.002+08:00

nothing is permanent XD.. ah pah said that...XD i mean hana said that...which i find it true...XD
so much so nothing lasts forever... ...rolls XDXDXD
most often or not... i rethink about the past... about what i did and what i said... it comes back to me... saying how childish and how insensitive i was... i rethink it over and over again... and i find it that it is nothing more than a cycle (says kasan)... sometimes i wish there would be changes somewhere... another route or somehow somewhere another passage... i just don't understand myself sometimes... and that what makes me wanna meet new people all the time... because like them i don't understand who are you ... which is another question i would like to question myself as well... i do thinks because i think its right ... i say things because there are things meant to be said...
when i realize it ... it is nothing but a mere insolent action i take just because of that moment...
what do i want and what do i need is like two different things... even as we speak or read at this matter... i don't even understand why i am saying this... is it because it is something i do or something i say to prove myself right...
this blog is my one only gateway of what i think... it is all words and nothing more... a record of what i do and what i did... it is merely a self satisfactory which i cannot bring myself to realise it but merely to type it out...
what is it that we want and what is it our purpose in life? i do not know the answer... i just felt like typing it out as if i want to say and brag about it to the whole world... what is it that you want... what is it that I want?
life is a mystery indeed... gosh i felt like i am doing this to brainwash my mind XDXDXDXD

i think i have been influenced...XDXDXD influenced by the people around me... am crapping lots
totally... i just told ashley i want to be a sponge too but not spongebob .... double sweat... =..=llllllllllll
ok that was totally uncanny... soooooooooooooooooooo random... well i saw how cute the little sponge was behaving i thought i could be that selfish once in a while... but i think i have already been selfish enough...
too selfish in fact -..-lll rolls...so let me roll
going for training now =..= with ashley...well i too hope my passion lasts... am pretty much ok ok only with aikido... just wanna work out and get my ass off the chair once a week

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Altmateria by Kawai Eri from Tales of Symphonia

Of games and events

2008-12-24T01:02:00.003+08:00

Lots to update so little time
anyway... it was teh o's birthday~ on last friday... finally 21...
big girl corrupted innocent mind ... XD wrong combination XDXDXDXD
we slept over at ashley's place that night and sorry i didn wear a skirt... so sorry to disappoint...
XDXDXD i mean... i wore a pants skirt XD ok after that we had a surprise for teh o.. which was a cake... and we tried to finish it on the spot... but we were just too full
XDXDXD and then we helped hana with their cf setup and all... oh well all for the free tickets... FREE TICKETS
and the next morning... barely had 4 hours of sleep... we went to the hall and the first thing in the morning i had to endure this aunty talking how expensive the cost of the ticket... well i know... of course we know... what do you think i am on duty for lady... for the free ticket... and what kind of parent are you to make your maid to help with your daughter's doujin... taking the maid for granted and proving how useless your daughter is ... like saying your daughter couldnt handle on her own... seriously don't they have things like carnivals in school... its pretty much the same concept... thanks to heal we manage to direct her where her nagging belongs to... the PR section... and kaede was nice enough to answer her... i was like nodding and drinking my way through... why bother to even 'layan' her... seriously... am not even a commitee member... don't think i should do more than i should...yea... laying my hands off and nose off where they don't belong... and oh well i went into the hall after that... and join teh o and juin in the hall... rawr... helped them out a bit... and then i helped distributed fliers to people with the domokun on my head... and otosan on teh o's head XDXDXD
massive advertising is needed... oh well had to bail soon... tong yuen dinner... thanks for the haro though kuan win ...XD was a rose in my sight XD
then i slept 10 hours straight... the day before the lotr... i had to entertain my friend for 2 hours... talking bout his relationship... gosh god... help me by helping them
and then after batteries been charged... another day at the cf and bailed out at 4pm... cause another tong yuen dinner and its not really a reuninion dinner... not everyone was there... just got forced by dad to go... i'll be toast if i don go... well at least managed to see my bro out of the 10 days he returned from singapore... more of a 'uh' 'um' thing and that is it... bon voyage...~~~~~~~~~
then there is yesterday a movie with sis of bolt... refreshing idea with cliche ending and i can spot those matte painting mistakes XDXDXD but the animation is awesome.... bolt... zoom zoom
and there was john lasseter modelled as the blur blur cameraman... what the heck
then my day today went from bad to worst.... bloody battery in my remote for my car keys didn't work so i tried the key... it wont shut up so i had to walk to the lock smith cause the spare key is with my other bro who barely drives... brilliant aint it... just brilliant...
and after that i have to endure 4 ladies talking bad about their bosses which i also listen on a regular basis with my lecturer... but this time i have to face them... oh well... =..=lll not that i am trying to be rude... but i always believe there is always 2 sides in a story XD so well i am just listening and nothing more
and after that was disappointed with the number of people who came for the secret santa event
cause less than half of the class came... thanks rubberfly for coming, teh o and zymz... hana@ahpah and yk and mark and yon hui and kuan win and jason thanks for coming XD i appreciate it
we had fun cause when we exchanged presents... i wrote... anything white... they bought me a box of condom ... not like i can use a male one... =..=lll but thanks for the thought XD and this is the list of things that were bought followed by what they wanted
ultrathin condom - japanese long balloons
cuff earings - butterfly headbands
d24 durian - dodol
chocolate brownie... chocolate brownie
anglia - anglia
yam jin - yam ice cream
rm10 note - rm 10 note
gashapon - gashapon
black nail polish - black nail polish
angpao - ang pao in an ang pao in an angpao...with a 1 cent coin
oh well some were funny and all yam jin became yam ice cream XDXDXDXDXD still laughing in my head and the ang pao one... well... yon hui bought another gift and hanged it on hana's door so it was very thoughtful of him... IF ONLY HE WAS A GIRL HANA WILL DEFINATELY MARRY HIM
XDXDXDXD
and last of all thanks for obeying my demands of playing secret santa... am happy that you all can make it and disappointed in those that miss it... it would seriously be a whole lot more fun if a lot more participated... oh well your lost our gain XP
so that is all for now... i hope it isn't too long...XD

~ja
~shinichi~
BGM : Kimi ga Hikari ni Kaete yuku by Kalafina from Garden of Sinners

The value of Introduction

2008-12-08T23:00:00.003+08:00

did you know eye contact is quite handy... i'll tell you why... that i forgot to mention in the previous post until i remembered... you do know how i dislike my lecturer ... well he is not that bad just dislikable and disagreeable to me
anyway this was what i remembered from 'Becoming Jane' so Jane Austen said...

"What is the value of an introduction when you don't remember my name,"

There you go... what is the value of introductions, and the name list if you don't remember names.... jee~
FOR THE PAST 14 WEEKS YOU COULD HAVE LEARNT OUR NAMES AND SPARE THE EYE CONTACT THINGY
i just don't know how many times i have to rant to get this over with... 14 weeks... 14 weeks and you can't get any of our names... i so want to cry... i know my lecturer was actually eyeing on our group for like every time one group has ended their presentation... i just looked away... didn't really ask the rest of my members to do so but they avoided it as well... oh come on how hard is it to call our names... there is a thing called the class register... you could have just ref from there....@#!@#$!#%#$@%@$^%$^#^@#$!#@!$##$#$#@#$#$@$%$%$%$%%^%^%^%^
it is so degrading the female gender
and then when we show him the lv ad we shown him weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeks ago...
he went like... "hmm so you all like lv brand la" and i said "no lo... no money to buy also"
then he went like "this is targeting japanese teenage girls...like you all" ....
$@%#$%@%^#%&$*&*&$W#%^$#%@#$%@$%@^%^%$^%^@%^@$%#@!$#$!#!$!#@@$@#$@$
swear i will never work with you or for you even if igloo's the only studio around

ok i can't be that rude or imprudent... but if he doesn't respect the style we are going for... i can't see the same wave length he does... so there is no channel for communication... no communication... how to work for or with him... =...=lll hope i am making sense here if not... i am just crapping
enough of ranting... now i should start working
i've been super lazy these days...
oh the holiday season ... wish it didn't come so soon
and i am going to organise a trip to sunway lagoon... and a secret santa session... anyone interested?
open to all dg65 classmates...
tell me if you're in yea XD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Unexpected Song by Sarah Brightman

How many eggs do I have?

2008-12-07T02:06:00.002+08:00

How many eggs do i have???? yet another spectacular question by ashley
i cannot stop amusing myself with her XDXDXD anyway an incident happened
ashley, iboh and prince charming got mugged on a fine 3am morning...jee look at the time
well ashley's gold necklace got snatched and she managed to run to nic's house for help which was a smart thing to do
charm got a cut at the ear and iboh scratches from his escape... well the thing is they are still alive and nothing much is lost so i guess that is something to be grateful for
and so that afternoon kasan,teh o and i wanted to visit charm at the hospital but we didn know where it was so we postphone our plan to the next day...
and boy was it an adventure or what... ok remembering the numbers 127 ok
well it was hell trying to get through the parking especially if you are driving big cars like an rv times 4
XDXDXD anyway we managed to go through obstical number one and of course there are more challenges ahead
finding the right lif and getting the right floors =..=lll
and there our l4d game begins... with the first flickering light and the smell of paint and the sound of thundering construction work... ok i am exaggerating XDXDXDXDXD
and our adventure begins XDXDXD well it was worth 20 minutes to get from the car to the ward... that is freaking long and the worst thing is... we left the newspaper that we got for charm and we had to go another time... so that is 20 time 3 ... one long hour wasted traveling XDXDXDXD
and the lift only works going up to that certain floor... so we had to take the stairs... =...= no lights were on so we had to carefully go down and it was quite gloom at that time... and since it was like an rpg playing l4d real life version, yon hui became the zoey XDXDXD and the three of us ashley teh o and i were the other charas XDXDXD well i think it was only me thinking of it as that way XDXDXDDXDXD
and there was this time when this nurse or doctor came into the lift and shocked yon hui out cause it was a bit sudden the doors opened XDXDXD
but we did manage to see charm in his charming state... the way the doctors bandaged his ear was like of a sushi master... =..=lll XDXDXD and he was still smilling and all... well no fever no nothing so so far so good...
think he is going to be pretty lonely... nothing much for him to do sides resting and all... the hospital is pretty scary... well it felt like a perfect place to be a haunted hospital
well all in all it was an experience we shall not forget... after that we had light dinner at ss2 and then we went to the gallery for a while and then we were off...to find ahpah XDXDXD hana
and that was my day...
but~ back when were at ss2 ashley asked me... how many eggs do i have... yet again another dirty talk amongst ourselves XDXDXD i mean in that gang... XDXDXD what an odd question XDXDXD
anyway today is a lazy sunday so i shall continue with my maya ~
oh and before i forget ... met some old smkbians whom i don even remember... jee... gomen =..= truth be told i dont really want to remember at all =..=lll gomene...
anyway

~ja
~Shinichi~

Kamai

2008-11-29T23:50:00.002+08:00

kyaaaaaaaaaaaa today was so much fun ... after class that is
went throwing ourselves all day XDXDXD
roll people roll ~~~~~~~~~~~~
ROOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
roll roll roll
ok enough of rolling
it was fun, at first ashley told me no mood liao...
after the class she ask me if we can stay back =..=lll
sweat XDXDXDDXD
and then i was supposed to send zymz to kj but was cancelled then we went to 100 yen shop to eat ice shave
was ok la xDXDXDXD nice also the peanut ice shave...XDXDXD
but more variaty at mill wheel and pricier too but not much la depends on what you order XD
anyway am starting to like the sweat once a week
but i don't think i can do it everyday like joseph and his dad... so spirited XD!!!!
suddenly sis said wanna try kendo~ XDXDXD
well just cause of the hakama only~
sigh~
oh and 3 people drove my car today XDXD from my car's behalf... thank you for praising
and oh well the grading was like this... kuanwin, hana then teh o
well that was the order as well...XDXDXD hana forgot how to balance the clutch and the oil pedal well XDXD
but it was still ok then teh o... XDXDXD well she was like me when i first drove XDXDXD
so no comment there XDXDXD
anyway
a bit tired today after rolling
so i am off to bed
i hate my lecturer for calling us girly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Last word you said to me by Sarah Brightman and Richard Marx

Tagged TWICE!!! T..T

2008-11-25T16:18:00.003+08:00

what ever i typed is out of random... am being random and blur againXDXDXD

Instructions: Remove any number of questions from below, and add in your personal questions, then tag any number of people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What do you do most for the time being?
laze in front of my pc...XD

2. What is your favourite animal(s)?
will plush toys do?

3. What is your one regret in life?
regret not speaking my mind out all the time

4. Who inspires you?
people who are successful

5. Tell me something I don't know about your family background.
my family is weird

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
no, that is why i need to study hard and work hard to survive XD

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
loosing my parents and my aunt@ my babysitter

8. What can cheer you up from sadness?
elmo?

9. Have you ever fall madly in love?
nope... everything has a limit

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- both of them are naive and crazy
- both of them are cute and are part of my harem XDXDXD
- they have a sense of naive humour and asks the darnest things!!!!

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- majestic in personality
- honest
- a murderer... =..= i got no idea what i am typing

12. What's the best thing that happened to you?
going to japan? well it was a good experience XD

13. What is your ambition?
to be able to buy an apartment with a scenic view, well in other words be really successful in life

14. Describe your life in one word.
eccentric

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
er~... can't i be greedy and have both

16. If you are told you can enter any university in this world, Oxbridge excluded, what university will you enter?
cambridge, vancuver film school, supinfocom or gobelins

17. Who is the persons (peoples) that you can share all your problems with?
i think i use to share with kagen, now i think i share them with teh o, hana and kasan?

18. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
lonely XD and lovable

19. Whats your one wish that can change your life forever?
to be a star up in the sky guiding people who are losts in the woods

20. What is your dream job?
conceptual artist? probably a fairy XD

Tag
since teh o and ashley did it...
Hana, Kasan, Kaede, Sue and Nelly
if they are willing to la

Happy thoughts Happy posts!!!!

2008-11-25T13:11:00.002+08:00

must think happy thoughts ~.~ and fly~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!
wish that spell works on me
but i prefer my feet on the ground where reality lies... and fantasies are nothing but a dream XD
wait wait wait... HAPPY THOUGHTS HAPPY THOUGHTS!!!!
XD anyway been told by kasan not to be so elmo... Bye bye elmo... go back to Sesame Street *kicks elmo and he flies across the world and back to Sesame Street!~*
anyway been ok this week...
hope teh o finishes the freelance soon > <

hmm
feel like cutting my hair,... but dunno what hairstyle to do
my lecturer suggested a shop at pavilion... that guy listens to what you say and he will cut to your liking... wOW
or probably a trim and a frinch...my hair is super messy... XD i don't even comb it often...
so much for being a girl... XDXDXD
was thinking of pampering teh o and ashley on the night we go
but
no skirts..
XD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Don't Cry for Me Argentina by Sarah Brightman

Joseph~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-22T17:43:00.002+08:00

I AM SO SORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY JOSEPH!!!!!!!
CRIES A SEA T.................................T
i will make it up to you~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well yea i missed aikido today... so i elmo
lllllllllllllllllllllllll=..=llllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
well not only that la ... lecturer said our work so girly...
what la... my group is made up of 4 females and 1 rgb = nelly
what do you expect.... lei shiong timmmmmmmmmmmmmm??????
of course girly la... ugh but then again...color sweet... =..=llll
!%$!#$@%$#%@$#%^#$%^$&#%^*$^&*%&(%*&)^*(()*)_&*()()^*(^
FT FT FT FT FT FT FT FT FT FT = Flip table
sigh~
i can't do anything right can i?
i can't do the frelance right... i can't do my job right... i can't do much can i?
it makes me wanna just fall from the sky with sarah brightman's voice ringing in my ear and just fall
with makoto shinkai's background... and just lemme fall
just makes me want to feel loved and want to love...
teh o~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~XD
but i know its an unrequited love.. nevermind la ... i'll just solitarily stand XD
being single is still fine for me...XD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : First of May by Sarah Brightman

Happy Birthday Kasan and Auto-san XD!!!

2008-11-18T01:40:00.002+08:00

Ah how time flies and its the end of the year again
today is Kasan and Auto-san's birthday party which we have it at paddingtons at the curve XDXDXD
was a good outing since we managed to cram 15 people XD 6 in my car and 5 in autosan's car and 4 at jarold's car XD
then we went to teh o's to add one more car to the collection ... i wanted to sit in the car she drives too...
XDXDXD enjoyed ourselves totally until bout 6pm.. XD
well... that was joy... now for doom... assignments...
i think i am not a multitasking person... =..=ll should have refused the freelance... now i feel like i am the one dragging the team down... @#$!#%$!$%@!#$!$!#@$!#@$#@$%#%$^%&%^&^&
been giving too many excuses to myself... i mean i can say it but i can't really do it... >< why?!
'i am not used to the style' is such a lame excuse... seriously... ARGH!!!!
=..=lll palletes too overised... i suppose... but won't it vary from the first one...
and i am blaming hana for his outlines.... teh o can do it ... why can't i > <
what's wrong with me > < #$$%$^@%^%#@$!#$#@$#$%#$$%$%#$^$%@$%@$#$#
need to study more... but i feel like i have no mood to do freelance... they are so similiar... so umm... i can't really tell what it wants from the lines... no feeling... no passion for it... =.......=lll
probably that is why i can't do it well... no passion for it... no feeling....... no will to do it... am more interested in my finals actually... to be honest i wanna do my finals the best i can... so different...
am not talking sense am i ???? XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD
well serves me right for being impatient... since i didn't put heart into it... might not taking the pay also... since i didn't do such a good job... -..-lll gomen

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Diamond Crevasse by May'n (Sheryl Nome) from Macross Frontier

Lost Paradise

2008-11-15T00:14:00.002+08:00

How did we end up on the nkve to ipoh????
o..0llll ... we took two hours to drive from sunway to klcc...
seriously i got no comment... am stunt and am shocked...
was really careless that day... am regretting the time when my dad kept telling me names of the roads... and i couldn't be bothered to remember them XD ... well at least i wasn't the driver...... is not really what i had in mind..
even though i didn't drive... i still feel at fault for not realize the situation...
but teh o was excited... XD like a lil wanko... XD on a field trip...
and that was how i am broke now... since i bought kusanagi.. which i waited for 3 months for it...
XDXDXD ok
anyway... i am going off soon
got training tomorrow
osu!
oyamimi!

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Everlasting by Kokia

Where do i stand?

2008-11-10T20:15:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wonder if ... if i am standing in the right place in the right time or not...
i felt so far behind...............................................i felt ancient ...
i really need to get myself an elmo so when i emo there is my elmo XD
well when i saw my classmates showing off their portfolio today... its like wow~... i am like in a world of professionals and i am just a by stander ... when i looked at my own...
they are so far ahead and i am way down here... looking up till my nexk stiffens... they were like the sky and me a leaf on a wide field... no different from the other~ felt so distant...
makes me wonder if i have the courage to move on or not...
felt like a drop of water from the sea... a grain of rice in a sack, a kilobyte in a gigabyte..
makes me ponder, wonder, and slumber XDXDXDXD
i want to be with them,... to be there in the sky too... to be someone... but first i have to find that someone within me... who am i? what am i? where am i? and most important of all... who will want me?
well not in the love relationship aspect... probably i should learn more...
i wonder when will i find it... hope the time for me to bloom is still not too late...
i'd probably pass for the potato lembut interview... -..-ll am nowhere near the standard also... and the fact that they are doing things that are realistic... and photorealistic ... its just not for me...

~ja
~shinichi~
BGM : Broken Vow by Josh Groban

Folded Corner of the Square

2008-11-09T01:40:00.003+08:00

XDXDXDXD ... er no ... not XDXDXDXD but T...............T
you know i just realise something... my final project lecture has never called my name... i mean... he called Jarold, Chris, Khairul, and even Yon Hui.... is it that our group is not doing well and not up to the standard... i mean... yea he used our group as an example to point up mistakes but... BUT... #@!#$@!#$@#$@#$%@#$%@#$%@#$%@!#$@$%@^$#%@#$!@$%@$#%@#^@%^@$%@$%@%^@%$%!$#%$#%@$%@$%@$%
i mean... i mean... T..T er yea there is also the probability that he has no use to simply call... but that day he has a short film to share and said it would be great reference for us but he said 'That~ group~!!!'
T...T naki sou da... is it cause my name is hard to remember?!?!!?! but what bout Yon Hui!!! i mean its a chinese name too .... and sometimes... its just... #$@!#$%@#$%@#$%@$^@#$%@#$%@#$%@^@$%^#$
kuyashi nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo > <
why are we refered as THAT GROUP and not by ... my name's group... or Cottage Pictures... its bloordy stated at the begining of the animatics... why~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
is it also cause my group's the only group with a female leader.... THAT IS SOOOOOOOOOOOO BIAS... SEXIST!!!!!!!! forgive my volcab if that is wrong... but it is so ...... >< ><
i soooooooooo wont go to his studio and work... so much for communication... hmph~!!!!!
fan toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooi
ok too much spaming and ranting... well.. today i started aikido training with ashley XD
was pretty fun XDXDXD but i burnt my toes instead XDXDXDXD no pain no gain
XDXDXDXDXD it was much better than the gasing dojo... cause i kinda got too attracted to the kids more than the sensei teaching... the trial class was taught by a tall big and heavy guy... and sweaty too
XDXDXDXD but he was easy to learn from ... probably cause he thinks we are kids XDXDXDXD
and oh well... kuanwin trained us today...XDXDXD dunno if he will be there next week or not... i feel bad to trouble joseph's dad every week... if he had to fetch us there... i prefer to drive there... and sometimes.... he kinda talk too much.. i just dunno how to reply him.... i feel super guilty in the car...-..-lll
but he is ok.. just a little ...bit annoying... lll-.-ll can't tell off a senior citizen can i ???
and teh o has been giving me stupid subliminal messages... wondering what is she up to... think i'll just flip the table at her if she does anymoreXDXDXDXDXD if you want me... just say la XDXDXDXD just kidding
sorry was bothering you the whole day...wont do that next week lu
XDXDXDXD

~ja
~Shinichi~

BGM : So she dances by Josh Groban

Mirrored Feelings

2008-10-30T22:28:00.002+08:00

Its been a while since i really REALLY blogged... why~
well this post's title is actually two different titles... just joint into one... mirror + feelings = mirrored feelings
i dunno... aniki and hana told me the same thing yesterday... i don't discuss much about my feelings...
hmm i thought i am an open book ...0.o XDXDXDXDXDXD and it seems like me blending into the male society is becoming more proficient... XDXDXDXDXDXD
well i dunno what to say... feelings... what is there to be happy about? what is there to be sad about?
i dunno... if there were anything bad to happen... then i suppose i'll be sad... if there is a happy ocassion i suppose i will be happy... -..-lll er that is not good is it? i am suppose to feel something or am i suppose to feel something?
somehow its just nothing... there is nothing to feel... now that i come to think of it... there is nothing to feel
feelings... -..-lll somehow forgotten what its like... is it something that makes your heart race? heart beat faster?
i dunno... what bout feelings for chocolate and art? but i suppose i would call them admirations and preference... not feelings.........~ emo post... XDXDXDXDD~
hmm teh o also said i am not honest... well...there is a thing called white lies...i 'XDXDXDXDXD' a lot cause sometimes i just dunno what to say and i have to reply...well curtesy... manners i suppose i think i mirrored nelly too much ... and i think i mirrored teh o TOOOOO MUCH... being too lazy already... sleeping at weird hours... acting a bit funny once in a while... stone too much... was stoning on my drive way home... the car suddenly braked and i think i was stoning a while... didn't realise...sudden brake and swerved to the other lane... then i saw that car.... so much space... why brake??? must be me stonning too much...
ah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
think it was because of my new sleeping habbit is bad and oh i faught with my sis again... =..-
just cause i don't like that song... she wants me to play it... ceh~ and she said it was due to my ignorance...
WHAT la ... it was an awful song... nelly fertado cannot sing... -..-ll am no fan of hers... despite a wonderfully written song... but horrible melody... -..-lll seriously...
yea and she wanted to listen to that song... and i didn't let at first cause she was annoying me while i am rushing for work... then she made so much fuss i let her lo~ then she got mad~...
seriously... i can't understand women... especially myself...

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Ai no Melody by KOKIA

-..-lll

2008-10-27T14:16:00.002+08:00

you are deepskyblue
#00BFFF

Your dominant hues are cyan and blue. You like people and enjoy making friends. You're conservative and like to make sure things make sense before you step into them, especially in relationships. You are curious but respected for your opinions by people who you sometimes wouldn't even suspect.

Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right.

Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.

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I am loved by 23% of the population, including:
63396 people who love young people
37257 people who love women
73060 people who love happy people

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5319 gays
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Raw evil score: 28.89%

You are driven and excited about new things and like to get stuff done (or at least mostly complete). You're not afraid of bigger, more challenging tasks because you know that the worst thing that could happen still isn't really all that bad. You probably have lots of hobbies already, but trying something new can be fun anyway.

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Look up information about family members! It's quite fun, and you should do it now when you're young because you've got old relatives around to help you out.

Your scores:

22.3

18.31

18.2

17.64

16.56

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Your result for What Your Taste in Art Says About You Test...

Simple, Progressive, and Sensual

Ukiyo-e (浮世絵, Ukiyo-e), "pictures of the floating world", is a genre of Japaneseand paintings produced between the 17th and the 20th centuries. it mostly featured landscapes, historic tales, theatre, and pleasure. Ukiyo is a rather impetuous urban culture that has bloomed in popularity. Although the Japanese were more strict and had many prohibitions it did not affect the rising merchant class and therefore became a floating art form that did not bind itself to the normal ideals of society.

People that chose Ukiyo-e art tend to be more simplistic yet elegant. They don't care much about new style but are comfortable in creating their own. They like the idea of living for the moment and enjoy giving and receiving pleasure. They may be more agreeable than other people and do not like to argue. They do not mind following traditions but are not afraid to move forward to experience other ideas in life. They tend to enjoy nature and the outdoors. They do not mind being more adventurous in their sexual experiences. They enjoy being popular and like being noticed. They have their own unique style of dress and of presenting themselves. They may also tend to be more business oriented or at the very least interested in money making adventures. They might make good entrepreneurs. They are progressive and adaptable.

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2008-10-15T16:41:00.001+08:00

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2008-10-15T16:31:00.001+08:00

Right brain vs Left Brain

2008-10-15T15:10:00.002+08:00

yea its left vs right and what are you XD
got it from this link
http://www.wherecreativitygoestoschool.com/vancouver/left_right/rb_test.htm

and this is what i've got XD

~ja
~Shinichi~
BGM : Howling by abingdon boy school

Left Brain	Right Brain
45%	55%

You are more right-brained than left-brained. The right side of your brain controls the left side of your body. In addition to being known as right-brained, you are also known as a creative thinker who uses feeling and intuition to gather information. You retain this information through the use of images and patterns. You are able to visualize the "whole" picture first, and then work backwards to put the pieces together to create the "whole" picture. Your thought process can appear quite illogical and meandering. The problem-solving techniques that you use involve free association, which is often very innovative and creative. The routes taken to arrive at your conclusions are completely opposite to what a left-brained person would be accustomed. You probably find it easy to express yourself using art, dance, or music. Some occupations usually held by a right-brained person are forest ranger, athlete, beautician, actor/actress, craftsman, and artist.

Your complete evaluation follows below:

Your left brain/right brain percentage was calculated by combining the individual scores of each half's sub-categories. They are as follows:

Your Left Brain Percentages

35%	Sequential (Your most dominant characteristic)
34%	Logical
27%	Linear
27%	Verbal
27%	Reality-based
25%	Symbolic (Your least dominant characteristic)

Your Right Brain Percentages

73%	Concrete (Your most dominant characteristic)
53%	Intuitive
40%	Fantasy-oriented
36%	Holistic
17%	Random
0%	Nonverbal (Your least dominant characteristic)

What Do These Percentages Mean?

Low percentages are common in the Brain Type Test and are not indicative of intelligence. Instead, medium to high scores (30 - 50%) are desireable, as they show an ability to utilize a processing method without an abnormal reliance on it. Special focus should be paid to highly dominant (50% or above) or highly recessive (0 - 30%) methods, as they tend to limit your approach when learning, memorizing, or solving problems.

If you have Highly Dominant characteristics, your normal thinking patterns will naturally utilize these methods. Conscious effort is required to recognize the benefits of other techniques. Using multiple forms of information processing is the best way to fully understand complex issues and become a balanced thinker.

If you have Highly Recessive characteristics, your normal thinking patterns naturally ignore these methods. You may only consider these under-utilized techniques when "all else fails," or possibly not at all. It is important to recognize the benefits of all of your brain's capabilities in order to become a balanced thinker.

Left Brain Categories

Sequential Processing

Sequential processing is a method used by the left hemisphere for processing information. The information that is received is processed in order from first to last. Information is processed in a systematic, logical manner. Through sequential processing, you can interpret and produce symbolic information such as language, mathematics, abstraction, and reasoning. This process is used to store memory in a language format. Activities that require sequential processing include spelling, making a "to-do" list, and many aspects of organization.

Your Sequential Analysis

You show moderate ability to organize information sequentially. You are capable of processing information you receive in a systematic, logical order from first to last. However, at times you will process information you receive quite randomly, or may give it only a semblance of order. You are probably an average mathematician and speller, and may or may not enjoy tasks such as making "to-do" lists.

Logical Processing

Logical processing is a method that is used by the left hemisphere to take information piece by piece and put it all together to form a logical answer. When information is received through reading or listening, the left hemisphere will look for different bits of information that will allow it to produce a logical conclusion. This aspect of the left hemisphere is what aids you in solving math problems and science experiments.

Your Logical Analysis

When processing information using this method, you may consider the information before you and produce a logical answer, or you may tend to go with your gut. You may discover that you can "guess" your way through S.A.T. questions about as accurately as you can deduce them. It is important that you nurture your ability to use logic whenever it is needed, but do not neglect other methods of processing information if you hit a logical roadblock.

Linear Processing

Linear processing is a method by the left hemisphere to process information. In this process, the left brain takes pieces of information, lines them up, and proceeds to arrange them into an order from which it may draw a conclusion. The information is processed from parts to a whole in a straight, forward, and logical progression.

Your Linear Analysis

When processing information using this method, you will occasionally feel the need to see the "whole picture" before you are able to achieve results. At other times, you are able to piece all of the parts together in a straight and logical progression to form a whole, which then enables you to understand what you have processing. The information, your mood, and your level of comfortable are all factors that determine your response to a linear processing problem.

Verbal Processing

Verbal processing is a method used by the left hemisphere to process our thoughts and ideas with words. For example, through verbal processing, a left-brained person giving directions may say, "From this point continue east for two miles and turn north onto Bellevue Road. Continue north on Bellevue Road for seven miles and turn west on Main Street". With verbal processing, exact, logical directions are given in a very sequential manner compared to a right-brained person who, in giving the same directions, would use more visual landmarks.

Your Verbal Analysis

You have a moderate verbal ability. Using this method you process your thoughts and ideas with words. You tend to combine technical details with illustrations, depending on whatever strikes you. For instance, if giving directions, you might say, "Continue two miles east on Court Street and take a left at the McDonalds," combining the exact details of street names and mileage with prominent landmarks.

Reality-based Processing

Reality-based processing is used by the left hemisphere as a method for processing information with a basis on reality. This processing tool focuses on rules and regulations. An example of this would be how a left-brained person would completely understand the repercussions of turning in a late assignment or failing a test. A left-brained person also usually easily adjusts to changes in their environment.

Your Reality-based Analysis

You process information with a basis in reality, but are not limited to it. You may recognize the repercussions of you actions, but proceed to do something anyway, in the heat of the moment. You can complete projects to whice you are emotionally attached as well as random tasks.

Symbolic Processing

Symbolic processing is a method associated with the left hemisphere that is used for processing the information of pictures and symbols. The majority of functions associated with academics involve symbols such as letters, words, and mathematical notations. This process is what aids you to excel in tasks such as linguistics, mathematics, and memorizing vocabulary words and mathematical formulas.

Your Symbolic Analysis

You have the ability to process the information of symbols at times, but you may need to first view the real object before you can understand what you are trying to process. For example, in solving math problems it occasionally helps you to "draw out" the problem, which allows you to better understand it through visualization. At other times you do not need visualization to aid you in forming your answers.

Right Brain Categories

Concrete Processing

Concrete processing is a method associated with the right hemisphere that is used for processing things that can be seen or touched. It processes much of the information you receive from real objects. For example, a right-brained person is not just satisfied that a mathematical formula may work, but will want to know why it works. A strongly concrete person often finds it easier to solve a mathematical problem by "drawing it out" because it allows them to visualize it. The more a concrete person can visualize something the easier it is for them to understand it.

Your Concrete Analysis

You are strong in concrete processing. When you process information about things that can be seen or touched you show great comfort. But when contemplating something without concrete form, you may have difficulty, and attempt to understand what is trying to be processed in visual terms. For example, if solving a math problem, it would help you to "draw out" the problem and visualize it. Only after visualization, would you feel comfortable solving it.

Intuitive Processing

Intuitive processing is a method that is used by the right hemisphere to process information based on if it "feels" right or not. For example, a right-brained person may choose an answer on a test because they had a "gut" feeling and often they will be correct. Another example of this is how a right-brained person will know the correct answer to a math problem but will not understand the procedure of how they arrived at the correct answer. A right-brained person will usually have to start with the answer and work their way backwards in order to be able to see and understand the parts and process that create the whole.

Your Intuitive Analysis

When you process information using this method, you rely upon your "gut" feelings to form your conclusions. For example, you often choose an answer on a test because of a "gut" feeling you have, and although you are often correct, you do not understand the details of why you are correct. You also often pay attention to clear and intelligible meanings.

Fantasy-oriented Processing

Fantasy-oriented processing is used by the right hemisphere as a method for processing information with creativity. It focuses much less on rules and regulations than the processing method of a left-brained person. Due to the fantasy-oriented processing mechanism of a right-brained person, they do not adjust well to change. Instead of adapting to the change in the environment, a right-brained person attempts to change it back to the way they liked it. But fantasy-oriented processing also provides the advantage of creativity to right-brained individuals, and since emotion is integral of the right side of the brain, anything a fantasy-oriented person becomes involved in emotionally will aid their ability to learn.

Your Fantasy-oriented Analysis

You have the ability to use both creativity and reality to process the information you receive. This is a unique gift that allows you to both focus on rules and regulations but to also act with creativity. You are able to adjusting to change, even though you might not like it, and you can become emotionally involved in your work if it interests you.

Holistic Processing

Holistic processing is a method used by the right hemisphere to process information. The information is processed from whole to parts. A right-brained person, through holistic processing, is able to see the big picture first, but not the details that accompany it. A strongly holistic person may often find that prior to listening to a lecture given by an instructor, they must first read the chapter so that they better understand what the lecture is about. This function is also what provides to you your visual spatial skills. It also aids in tasks such as dancing and gymnastics. Through holistic processing, memory is stored in auditory, visual, and spatial modalities.

Your Holistic Analysis

You show some ability to process data holistically, starting with the whole and working backwards to find the parts, which inform the whole, to form your conclusion. When you process information in a linear manner you are able to start with the parts and work up to form the whole. It is important to be comfortable with both methods, as both are equally necessary in the learning process.

Random Processing

Random processing is a method used by the right hemisphere for processing information. The information that is received is processed without priority. A right-brained person will usually jump from one task to another due to the random processing by their dominant right hemisphere. Random processing is, of course, the opposite of sequential processing therefore making it difficult for right-brained individuals to choose to learn in sequence. In order to overcome this, a right-brained person may want to attempt to learn sequence by using colors since the right hemisphere is sensitive to color. For example, you may want to associate the first step with green, the second step with blue, and the last step with red. Consistently using the same sequence will allow you to see that this strategy can be applied to many tasks involving sequence.

Your Random Analysis

You tend to not process data randomly, preferring instead to follow a systematic, logical order from first to last. You have difficulty making "leaps of logic" which prevents you from making unique discoveries, or adapt to change during your thinking process.

Nonverbal Processing

Nonverbal processing is a method used by the right hemisphere to process our thoughts with illustrations. Reliance on this method is why it is occasionally difficult for right-brained people to "find the right words" in certain situations. A right-brained person cannot just read or hear information and process it, but first must make a mental video to better understand the information they have received. For example, through nonverbal processing, a person giving directions may say, "Continue going straight until you see a big, red-brick courthouse. At the courthouse turn right, and go down that street for a couple of miles until you se a gray stone church which will be on your right. Straight across from the church is the road to the left you need to take." With nonverbal processing, the directions that are given are extremely visual compared to the exact, sequential directions that would be given by a left-brained person.

Your Nonverbal Analysis

You have little ability in nonverbal processing. When you process your thoughts and ideas you mainly use words instead of illustrations. For example, if you were giving directions you may say, "Continue traveling west for 3 miles and turn north at the intersection." You would give exact, logical directions in a very sequential manner.

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